I left my job because I had to work for hours and didn’t get a day off and it was taking a toll on my health. I started preparing for Neet MDS, didn’t get a govt. seat in two tries. I always feel low and need people who can cheer me up if they can. I have been dealing with a lot of self doubt and anxiety for a long time now. I don’t receive enough love from my family, my dad has anger issues. I am trying my best to overcome it. I am taking little steps everyday to improve, my health is getting better, I am studying the right way. I am trying my best to maintain positivity. But my boyfriend always keeps on taunting me. Very often indirectly about how I don’t have responsibilities and things that trigger my insecurities of missing out. Whenever he gets a chance he taunts me. He has a problem when I sleep early and also when I sleep late. I am preparing for exams. Sometimes he says don’t you get a back pain laying all day on bed, people who have a job know when to sleep and what not. I have never answered him back because I am not that kind of a person who would want to hurt her beloved. But now it’s too much that it makes me mad and I keep on questioning my choices. I pick up his calls everytime he calls me, even if I am studying, I only pick up his calls, I don’t talk to friends. Sometimes he calls me so that I can help him with his work. I help him everytime I can without any complain. Today he taunted me directly, he said that you’ve worked for quite a less time that’s why you can’t sleep on time because you know you don’t have to go to work tomorrow, your sister she has to go to work that why she sleeps on time, why don’t you iron her clothes because you are at home?
Honestly, I feel sad. I don’t know how to deal with it, I am just hurting myself everyday.
It’s a tough situation to be in. First of all tell ur bf to be mindful and respectful. Say it clearly. Also, you need to connect with other friends. Otherwise you will get isolated. Work on ur exams and do well. Take responsibility of your life and meet people across spheres. If u don’t do that, you will have a narrow view of things. Life is to be lived not dragged. I am sure you will do well.
You are 101% correct. I will try my best to follow your advice.
A dentist myself and I have quit clinical sector for same reason, I wasn’t happy with the work culture or the medico mentality. If you have an extra degree then you are superior, if you are working in a better company/ or clinic that is superior. Now I don’t have believe in this and I moved to no clinical sector. My advice is to decide what kinda life you want. And choose people according that. Put yourself in the center and design your circle. Be bold and say no to BF who are that mocking types.
