I knew it wouldn't happen but i still thought maybe it will. I don't know when these feelings will end from my side. Just because of a person even on special days feels like nothing. But no issue i will handle that also. 

Lonely

I have this constant anxiety if I am making right decision about my life I am moving to a new city although I have wfh but I feel I need to explore my life a bit but I feel selfish as well for leaving my family and just thinking about myself my fun....am i wrong pls tell me

3am Thoughts

Being in a platonic relationship sucks. Especially when you start gaining feelings. 

Frustration

I am just having the worst days in my life for past few months. I really hope that everything is going to be okay... Bt everytime a problem solve another new probkem arise in my life. It's too complicated for me. I am living a life which is designed by this society. I really wanted live like i want. But yeah my situations doesn't allow me too. I feel so bad... At the same time i hope that i can make it one day.. I really wanted to achieve everything that i dreamed of.

Anxiety

Kare megha kare megha ... paani to barsao..🎶🎶🙏🙏

Music

There are so many people feeling lost and alone on this site
I can't imagine how many there would actually be who think they're alone
None of you are alone
Look past the materialism of having friends who go out and party and stuff
Life is more than that
Try to find yourself.. i was just like you.. probably still am but the one thing i know i have to focus on is judging and understanding the kind of person i am and how connecting to the entity or belief that we call god will help me get through this
Have faith you'll be okay
Hari om 🕉️

Affirmations

Raat k samme zada dard hota hai, well dard toh hamesha moujood rehta hai lekin raat m janab dard samoudra se gehra or asaan se oochan hota hai 

im tired of lifeee

Mental Health


I have friend whom i considered to be the best one in my high school. We shared such a pretty bond, that I can never ever forget the moments. While it was an end of our high school(march 2020), we had a casual misunderstanding. He kept on calling me in seconds, he needed me there everytime to listen to his love life. Anyhow, I had to focus on my board exams more. So I hardly answered his calls. Next day he came to me and asked me to block him, saying that “phn uthana ni hota to block krde”
Idk wht made me do that the very moment. I did it there and then. And we both went away. Realising that I have honestly blocked him, he asked me have a conversation. Unfortunately, it went nowhere!
We argued more and more. I was there standing and saying “tune hi kha tha block krde, now i won’t compensate my action” After minutes of hvng the same cnvrstn, we ended there. Then we met on the exm day. His seat was next to mine, i had a good hold in that particular subject whose exam was to be held. Thus, i supported him saying that he could ask me the things as usually, and i was there besides all those shity fights.
He said okay. After that covid happened. None of us knew that it was the last meeting. Things were same. We were there for each other just to help and nothing much.
He tried to contact me after all this but there was something holding me back. Idk what!
We were involved in a conference call at the time of our result day. Were reacting like normal people. Call disconnected and then we made a personal call and talked about this result thing only. He wanted me to give him a closure. I was there just trying tk explain him that i wasn’t going anywhere and was there for him whenever he needed. After that, we met once. Just a casual meeting.
They say na “Careers don’t let us stay in the same citiy.” That’s what exactly happened. He decided to go far away for his studies and asked me very hopefully if i could meet him, so as to have no grudges. I asked him for some time and finally said a yes. We went to a cafe and taaadaa things were all changed. This wasn’t the guy i knew. Everytime he kept on saying"sb kch toh bdl gya, rh kya gua, mne itnaa toh kch nhi kia thaa, hm vps s nrml hokste h?" I kept on giving him assurance that it was all same. Nothing has been changed. I was here, i wil always be here. Deep down i too believed that he was saying it right. Wished him goooddd luckkk andd asked to stay good. I also added that i an jst a call away if you got smthng impornt. He rptd the word IMPORTANT and i said yess, if important. He’s here in the city now, the city to which we belong. I met a school friend today and got all the flashbacks. Now i am missing him. I wanna meet him, tell him that i am msng him, but then it’s making me think what if he got stability in his life. This was my decision to let this bond go off. I wanted to give him time so that he holds no grudges in the new city. And now it’s me who wants to sit with him and remember all the crazy days we spent together. Too confused bw I WANT TO and I SHOULDN’T! Thinking of calling him next time when he comes.

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