I keep on wasting my time and days ... I have wasted 2 months . I feel like crying


start to learn something , start small , 30 minutes each day, we are humans , we can do it.

Please remember that we are in the middle of a pandemic and that it isn't a productivity contest. Please do not feel guilty. It's okay!

 maybe u r a student and u care abt  ur future. i do the same.  and i cry over it too we both need to suffer for this knowing that we will regret 

Success

I don't know why but these days I'm feeling like not to do anything. And it is making me feel so sad.

So, i woke up in the morning with a bad mood. At first I didn’t know why but then I realised I was stressing over how i had so many plans for my life but still haven’t done anything. 

There are people (my classmates, friends, etc.) who have already began to work or are preparing for an entrance exam they have to crack, and I’m still here waiting for my last year in college to end so that i can move further. But this makes me like I’m doing it all wrong.

I always wanted to talk about this to someone but when i do everyone just thinks I’m dumb and have no plans for my future and I’m just dreaming and having unrealistic expectations from life but NO! It’s  not like i have no plans for my life, i do! And i am slowing working on it!  But I just keep feeling I’m too slow because everyone is already doing something and I’m still here!

I know after reading this some might say, “Just get up, and start working on it. Don’t just think, take some action.” Like yes, i know, just sitting and thinking doesn’t work. I’m just waiting for this year to end to i can think of what i can do further. But also I don’t want to feel like I’m doing nothing with my life.


Overthinking

Screaming my thoughts heree!!

3am Thoughts

I have always been that person who was know to be cold and heartless, someone who has no feelings and especially romantic ones. I was the girl who would break the hearts of the guys I was involved with (I did not mean to do that but, I cannot force myself to love someone) 
I spent a very long time like that. Until one day, I searched about aromantism, and I thought I was aromantic. However, this week, some weird things have been happening to me. I was getting lonelier every day. I longed for a particular person and that particular person was not even special. I just liked their presence around me. I know that my feelings are difficult to decipher and for 20 years I have never felt something like this. Now, I am afraid of loneliness,  afraid of not seeing that person but I don't want to see them. Even my body is rejecting these  strange feelings, my heart is beating fast and I feel depressed, I sleep a lot and I don't want to eat anything because I am nauseous. Deep inside, I think I know what I am feeling. Yet, I keep rejecting it because the person I am thinking about may be toxic to my independence , my self confidence and my perception of things. I am a strong independent woman, and I surely don't need any kind of feelings to stand between me and success, what should I do? 

One Sided Love

I need to step away from this platform as well, or else I won't be able to stop chasing her.

Girlfriend

I don't feel like anything at all.

Mental Illness

Useless as fuck can I die now?

Self Harm

It is It Love developing, or I am being a fool once again? I have an immense fear of being hurt like in the past ... And it takes away my sleep

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