i keep being left out by my friends and i never get invited for stuff i don’t know what i’m doing wrong 

You must at the wrong place.. if those people are your friends why they let you feel avoided.. every person is different and you must be special.. so make your kind of friends.. don't push things to be just surrounded by people

You are not doing anything wrong, it’s them. You are in the wrong friend circle. 

Friends

I used to think I needed a lot of friends so I can feel loved. I was so wrong. The older I get, the more grateful I am for my small circle of friends.


Personal Growth

I don't know how it feels like having good friends. I never had one. All of them backstabbed and hurt somehow. Now I've shielded myself from such people but, I feel so lonely sometimes. 

Anxiety

hey again everyone. I hope all is well.
I just saw my ex-best friend's story. seems like she is living a great life. You know that feeling you get when you realize you truly have no friends, no one to turn to in a time of need. Every time I try to make friends it never ends well, so why do it anymore right? In middle school, I had a lot of friends and to think that I have zero right now is kinda crazy.

I feel the need to vent, and I support and welcome any comments and suggestions... I feel exhausted, like all the time. I'm 26 and I feel like I wasted my entire life already, like I know I haven't but it doesn't feel like I'll ever get to have the experiences I really want, like, I've never even been to a party, do house parties not exist anymore? Yea I know Covid has that shut down right now but still even before then. I used to have a good group of friends and we all hung out on Discord playing games and D&D together, but due to multiple reasons I don't feel comfortable playing D&D with them anymore and it's given me less and less of a reason to be around them. I like them, for the most part, but I feel so unimportant to all of them that it doesn't even matter I haven't been in the chat for like 8 months. My other group of real world friends (whom I only met about 5 years ago) I honestly cherish more than anything else, but I feel more like an outsider than their friend. I know it's probably wrong, but I feel like I only get invited to things as a side thought. I hate myself so much, and I think it leads to me isolating from everyone all the time, and I go through these phases of getting over that and hanging out with everyone like everything's fine and then I vanish for month's. I worry about the days where I finally decide to isolate myself from the people I know in real life, cause I for sure will kill myself... I'm not trying to cause alarm for any who are reading, I really am in a good place and honestly one of the best mental health stages of my entire life. But if nothing else, others would describe me as shrewd and to the facts, and I honestly believe if those days come I will kill myself, so I'm trying to figure out what I need to do to turn my life around to stay away from that. I like my job, but it could be better. I live with my parents, but I'm saving up to try to buy my own place. I have a girlfriend but that's extremely complicated right now. I'm so tired of being alone on weekends, but I'm terrified to ask people to hang out with me. I feel like I missed the "party" stage of college and high school and now I don't know how to go out and make friends. I started going to raves with my a few of my friends and unsurprisingly that spiked my anxiety levels to a point I didn't even think possible, like I consider myself a pretty chill guy, really laid back go with the flow, all cool baby, and here I am having literal panic attacks at a silent disco (for those who don't know its  a small silent dance floor and everyone is given headphones to jam to at their own leisure) and it doesn't help that I feel like an outsider even with the people that are there "with me". There's a lot of times I hope and pray that reincarnation is real so that when I die, I can get another chance and hopefully not fuck it up again, and I get this feeling of being stuck, like, I don't expect to die of natural causes for like 60 years, and I'm gonna try VERY hard to stay away from jumping off a building, if for no better reason than that if I do, and heaven and hell do exist, then I probably won't end up in the same realm as my kitten that I had to put down last year.... I'm not trying to write a sob story, but it hurt... And she felt like a reason for me to get my life on track and fix everything, I was actually extremely motivated to change for her, and then she had to leave... And now I have nothing.

Anyways I think that's all I have to say, I think it helps to just have my thoughts written down and exposed to the world, so feel free to comment or don't.

Overthinking

i don't believe my friends loves me. what should i do? i feel pretty depressed

What do I do if all my friends don't usually start a conversation with me or just have a laugh until I start the conversation? Sometimes they ignore me and pretend I don't exist until they need a favour. I am starting to feel like a third wheel between them.

It's like for the first time in a while I've made good friends. But most of the times it's hard for me to connect to them. I Often feel like there humour doesn't match mine. There understanding/ perception about life is almost similar to mine but i can't relate to their problems. I have financial issues and nobody else realizes it. 
Sometimes i do feel that i want to live incognito and be someone but other times they respect me and be so kind. I admire each one of them. But relatibility factor lacks sometimes. I Don't understand why they are so high maintenance. Like friendships can be low maintenance and easy right but they cost me financial strains. 
Thoughts anybody!?

Do you ever have that feeling where you're surrounded by people but you still feel alone? Yeah, that's basically how I feel. There's technically nothing wrong in my life, I'm the problem. I have a caring family and great friends but I just can't help but feel so lonely. It's not always every second of the day that I feel lonely of course but, it's just this feeling deep in my mind that just says that I'm not happy. I have 5 close friends who I always talk to but I just feel like I don't fit in. One of them is my best friend whom I've had for almost 4 years, he's a kind person but I don't want to burden him with my emotions since he already has his hands full with his problems.
Then there's this friend that I've known for almost a year, she's a really good friend and I sometimes tell her what I feel but, I don't know if she'd rather be talking to me or her other friend. She sometimes tells me that I make her friend happy and she feels like she doesn't make them happy. I kinda feel like I'm intruding on their friendship, like I'm not supposed to be there. 
My 3rd close friend is the best friend of the 2nd person I mentioned. I talk to her practically every day but as I said, I don't know if she'd rather be talking to someone else.
I don't know a lot about the other 2 people but I still consider them close friends. 

So to sum it up, I just don't know who to tell my feelings to. I don't want to tell my parents since it'll worry them and the first time I told them, they didn't understand and just kept talking about school and grades. I don't have any other close family members except my cousin but we don't talk about our emotions. 
It's just really hard since I feel like I *need* to make my friends happy, I *want* to make them happy yet I don't know how. I just don't want my friends to feel what I'm feeling.
For anyone who read this, thank you for listening I guess.

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