I just want to tell all of you that I might not be a good person rn, but I wake up every morning with the only motive of becoming one.

You no need to become a good person. Just thinking of becoming a good person makes you good.

Anxiety

Missing her so much . 
Saved her photos in fb account . 
Now forgotten the password & number is lost ! 

Love

Not getting hungry...
Not feeling asleep...
High body temperature....
Some call it love... some call it stress...
I think it's just the game of perspective...
How you think about things is more important...

3am Thoughts

Bihari koi...???

Other

I'm mad at people who think having anger issues is cool and 'aesthetic' when in fact it hurts people around them. and their excuse is 'no one understands me' and denying the fact that they're traumatizing people, especially the sensitive ones. Why don't they just try to fix themselves first? 

Anger Issues

There is a conflict,war and so many things  going on in my mind at a time. I don't want to feel sad over being ignored and feel like a shit while other person is behaving like he is lord. I know I can overcome this situation eventually but still how many days? This question is eating me.

Conflict

It's hard to explain what the heart wants

Adulting

just want to leave everything as everything feels like shit nowadays....also i don't share too much with anyone but sometimes it becomes quite lonesome...it feels like i m trapped with my own thoughts

So it's about "SEX" .. Now that I have your attention .
Will the real slim shady please stand up.. no sorry I just had to.. Back to the story
I had this girlfriend back in April , whom I lost my virginity to *woohoo* ... It was pretty serious but I knew I couldn't fall in love with get, because at a certain point you do seek the approval of other people and literally everyone I know did not like her , I did start to enjoy the sex it was beautiful as beautiful is ... So I have this submissive personalty side where I like the pain with the pleasure and the thought me telling that to her just freaked me out , I was bugged for a couple of days thinking of the  different ways I'll be judged and she will break up with me and I'll end up hurting myself because of something I found stupid.... so I broke up with her .... Yeah stupid I know :)
** 11 MONTHS LATER **  
We talked about this when I had accepted what I like and there's nothing wrong with it and she said that she was into dominating ..... She's moved back to her home town now , told me she found someone special ( pretty sure that was just to rub it in my face ) but the fact is accepting my insecure habits and quirks ( fetish) actually made me happier today .

*Moral of the story kids *
Don't miss out on something Because you think someone won't accept you , it's worth a shot m8. So just tell anyone who will listen and no I don't Mean a random stranger on a metro or your gynaecologist :)

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