I just want to end it all, I have 4 friends, one who goes to my school, two who live in a difference state but go to the same school, and one who lives in the next town. The one who goes to my school is really toxic, she talks bad about my family, about me, and can’t EVER keep a secret. The one who lives in the next town over is ok, we’re basically family since our parents know each other, but I don’t like telling her everything and something even she can be mean. The two who live in a different state live 500 miles away from me, they are both really good friends and I always feel left out when we FaceTime, recently one of them chose a guy over me… I don’t know how to feel about that. The other one is the best out of them all, but sometimes I feel like I can’t tell her everything either, she tells me everything (I think) and says that I’m always happy, and that I barely cry. And those are my only friends. All of my life and I can’t get the one person who I want the most, somebody who goes to my school, who I can tell everything to, who I trust.