i just wanna feel better about myself. I want to be confident. I don’t wanna mix up my words while talking to others, I don’t wanna be seen pathetic. I wanna be happy with what i have. Why can’t i be happy?
Because of self doubt may be… I had faced this issue n still facing in some situations. But I can suggest whenever you are in that type of situation just take a deep breath n speak… just make urself comfortable… I know it’s difficult but u can do it
how did you deal with it?
First think about what things u have, be grateful for them. We tend to compare ourselves with others this is the main reason which causes lowering our confidence. If u have to say something or talk abt it to anyone then try to portray them as ur friend (with whom u r comfortable) and say it. If u don’t speak up then other people will think that this person doesn’t have any knowledge. This has happened with me as I used to seat in ofc n didnt talk to anyone, I had worked on all type of tasks but as I haven’t shared this thing with my team, they were in unaware abt my capabilities. My manager helped me to push my limits bz of that I get the courage to talk in some situations. U are also required to find that courage, u require to understand why u need to achieve a particular thing n ur confidence plays a vital role in that.
I hate myself for everything. I hate myself for what I told Meredith. I will never forgive myself for that. 
