I just need to feel supported even when I'm at my worse. I need to feel loved, appreciated, cared for.. 
I feel like I don't matter for anyone
I feel lonely.. 


3am Thoughts

Life get easier as soon as you believe their sometimes really great waiting for you.

Life

I am doing not so good but better at another side too I also want good loyal some few freinds in my life I want someone to talk at this point of time I have no one to talk with or make bond with .

I think I *might* have depression. Either mild or moderate depression. Idk... Is there any specific way on the internet thru which I can find out for sure?? 
And idk what I'm gonna do if I really have depression. 
I already have social anxiety since 2 years and my parents have no clue. 
I don't think I'll even tell them bcz they won't understand. 
Telling them about all this itself would be a big task 

Depression

AFTER a long time back in here.

I feel a deep sense of ugliness within myself, not stemming from my physical appearance but from my inner being. 

The anguish reflected in my eyes speaks volumes, yet people continue to express their love for me. 

 At times, when I catch a glimpse of my inner self, I am confronted with a darkness and malevolence that bewilders me. 

I often question why this is so, but no answer seems to come. 



I had a bad day, I am in the hospital for another treatment to help my type 1 diabetes but that isn't the problem.

1. I found out that I have some infection and I texted it to my dad, which I regret a lot because I feel like I said it wrong or it came out of context. I hate the thought of that. 
2. I saw the psychologist and I feel like I had an anxiety attack during it. I felt like my throat was tight, I couldn't breathe and barely talk without sounding horrible. She wants to see me and got my dad's permission, which makes me embarrassed and somewhat ashamed. 
3. My dad has a friend who came over to get me some stuff I needed. She started talking about how I should eat and the diets I should be on (which I am on already) and about taking supplements for diets. I don't like how she just thinks she can decide about my diet and not the doctors. She is also awkward and I don't like her. How do I get rid of the embarrasement? 

HELP


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