I just hate it when some people explain or say things to you in way that makes you feel dumb. Those narcissistic tendencies never goes away

Kind of...but like when i say something and instead of just correcting me and making me understand why it's wrong they laugh like it's the dumbest thing they heard 

That's the point i like them lol nvm thanks though 

3am Thoughts

I was being insecure, because often I get panic attacks, so he said u don't trust me how can u love me🙂💔... So now My guy says "only then a girl share n - udes when she really loves the guy" I've trust issues if you love me you'll give me ... I'm sooooo uncomfortable but he is not ready to listen any other thing... So I said first you give then I'll.. I thought he won't so I'll not have to give.. but he shared his 🥲 ... Now he says I'm a liar and I'm not giving .... IDK why is he behaving in such ways 

Adulting

Why people trust more on an outsider than their own family?

For as long as I can remember making friends has been a different experience for me than seemingly most people. When I do I always end up either with the wrong crowd or I’m just constantly let down. I made this friend in junior high and I’ve put them through so much, I had completely ghosted them because my toxic ex-boyfriend had convinced me she was trying to get in-between our relationship— it was kind of my fault as it wasn’t too hard to convince me, I was so quick to switch up (I know ironic haha). Like I said I ghosted her for about a year but we started talking again after I finally got my head out of my ass and decided to reach out. We’re on good terms now and we talk every single day… What’s the problem? I’m not entirely sure myself. Recently she’s gone through a loss (her dog passed away of old age, he lived a long full life) and she talks about it a lot which is alright because that’s what friends are for, but she seems so upsettingly hopeless and no matter what advice I provide she seems to just immediately dismiss it or refuse to acknowledge it completely. She’s not doing well with school either and she might not pass this semester, meanwhile I’m here finding myself struggling with my gender identity and parents who won’t let me connect with anyone in the outside world (mainly why I’m even here, a free website which you can post anonymously with private tabs? It’s perfect) I do have my own life and my own problems and so does she. I like when she talks about herself as it’s rare to get anything out of her but when she’s just so hopeless and claiming to have (hurtful thoughts) while I can’t do anything about it makes me feel so useless. I would report her to somebody, anybody really but I worry about the damage I would do to her in means of home life. I’ve talked to others about it and the most I got was to either report her or just drop her all together… I’ve felt like this for so long, what do I do?

Conflict

Depressed

Today I feel more alone than I ever have. In my story I feel like I'm the bad guy. 
5 year ago I met a woman I was lonely and depressed. I feel I love with her the second we met. But I had issues myself. We got close very quickly. She was pregnant within three months. During that time for I don't know why...I messaged an escort and said very inappropriate things. We stayed together I was a peice of garbage to do that to someone. I did the same thing to her two seperate times a year apart. Her trust in me was more than gone and she still stayed with me because she loved me and wanted to make this work. But there was other problems. My anger my tone of voice my guestures. .it was all negative and bad and I didn't treat her with the respect and compassion I would want my mother or sister treated with. She had extreme back pain and left work at covid and tried to go back only to not be able to work for a year to this date. Everything a out her changed because the pain was that bad. I was the complete opposite of caring and compassionate...I was an asshole. I didn't understand how she was feeling and I still had some anger problems and in my tone or the way I would speak. Eventually she told me I had to leave and I did and it was less than nice. For the following months I was nice to her in anyway possible. After some time we were able to talk amicably and share some feelings. So for the last four months my ex has come over when I have my son... I talked to a help line and tried changing all my negative behavior and the way I speak with my words and my tone. I found out my ex was still in love with me but didn't want a relationship with anyone but told me she couldn't be without me. But just as friends for now. But wants me to talk to her everyday...call her every night before bed if she'll talk...but I'll get txts and pictures from her everyday. She will not commit to me in anyway shape or form. Talking about " us " gives her more reasons to put up more walls. And she does so and I push her away a little more everytime. I've probably lost her for good now and have to accept it no matter how much u dislike it. I'm a good person and I've made a lot of bad choices. She's more than just a warm body to way but she is so scared from her past and the trauma I created she's broken now and it's my fault. If I had just been more compassionate carrying and loving I would have married her...I've done nothing but push her away. She wants many things in life but would prefer to live in the moment and not think about the future...think of us together makes her remember all the shitty times we had and the good times leave. 
She hates me and loves me
This isn't a positive relationship 
It's two sad people in life . I'm sad and have made about human being sad and feel worthless.
I love and miss her every second of everyday 
I'm not a good person. I've lost who I am I think... I just see this 35 yo man who grew up too slow.  


Depression

I am extremely burnt out. I can't stop crying and my mother is angry because I cry. I'm having a bad depressive episode. I can't stop picking at my skin it has started bleeding. I feel like ending everything.

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