I just got broken up with by my boyfriend of 10 months. Its the longest relationship I've ever had and he was so good to me. I've never been hurt this bad but I want it to stop. I dont want to feel this way anymore, I dont know what to do. I need help.

Breakup

Most of the time people yearn for being with someone...but as for me I yearn for my solitude...I get anxious or I feel uncomfortable around people...after work when I get home being tired....I like to spend my time being with myself....rather than thinking of to be taken care of by someone...I like to take vare of myself...day by day I'm becoming like this....the love I had  for people is fading away....I'm feel numb...:)why is this happening? Idk...but I don't really like to surround myself with anyone...


3am Thoughts

He said you can call me whenever you wanna talk and I will be available and now that person went far away from me that he dont even trust me. It's been 2 weeks since I didn't contact him, I wanna forget him totally and I succeeded. Am meeting new people, making new contacts. I dont wanna remember him at all in my life anymore. 

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Why do people judge???? 
Especially from a person we never expect from.. Me as a person who never actually trust anyone but after soo long I trusted but at the end I got to know that i was been judged again by that person, 
Why does it happens  ,, am I that bad for people to judge me??? 

Exhausted

I read something and i think everyone should know that "Here is something you should know : *Not everyone feels everything as deeply as you do , and at times , that is going to feel like the most isolating experience in the world . You feel deeply , and not everyone is going to understard why you think about things so much , they'll call you an over - thirker and tell you to stop worrying about things outside of your control , but when you feel deeply , you think deeply , it's not something you can just switch off . You can , however , use it to your advantage , you can use it to understand yourself , and when you can understand yourself , you'll finally realise that you'll never really be able to willy understand life , but you'll be able to accept that for what . it is , and not as another problem for you to try and solve*
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Mental Wellbeing

i am sad about nothing but feeling always low from many days now i always think may be as time passes i will be fine but no matter how the time fly's i still be the same sad alone person

Depression

Ive been recently rethinking my relarionship with my bf, as i am begining to doubt he is as good and healthy to me as i originally was convinced. He gets very jelous, up to the point where ive had to read chats with male friends out loud to him while he is crying in a panic attack. I had to quit my job and go back to my home town for dental treatment (severe past trauma), bc only this crazy doctor wanted to treat me. It was hard bc i had to enter long distance relationship mode, and additionally my parents despise him bc i want to live with him and not with them to do their work. The guy helped me out of depression, helped me stop taking pills and helped me stop making myself into everyones emotional wastebin. However, my parents, hating him, decided they would blackmail him into getting a loan for them. This poisoned our relationship as well, and bc my mom isnt really ok in the head, at this point he has given me 24 hours to take the measures i need to take to get outof here, even if it means calling the cops on my parents, as well as child services (i have 3 younger siblings). With all the good things hes done to me, hes also called me pathetic a number of times, and held me responcible for things he had done for me without me even knowing he had, bc i " didnt appreciate them". If i havent done the neccassery by 24 hours, he is dumping me.
If i go to him, it means strapping myself with loans that need paying, my mom says she will also find a way to sue him, dad is saying i will never get a glimpse of my family again. My bf convinces me its the better choice, that they are toxic, horrible people, and that he will help out with me paying stuff. (he also sees me pathetic, with a whorish behaviour bc i have male friends at all, even tho i rarely go outor talk to them at all).
Other option is i stay here, we break up, it kills me. Illnever forgive my parents, but ill have no chouce but to help out with the business i hate so that my loans can be paid up. Meanwhile i work extra and potentially gather enough money to get myself a flat under rent in the city i left where my bf is.
I love this biy so much, but he is so exteme and isforcing me to be extreme as well and i cant handle that so easily. I cant just call foster care or the police, its not that simple, it never is when its your own family.
Can anyone give me an advice on how to proceed? 

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