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I just feel so lonely. My mom can’t do anything for me and my dad is extremely emotionally abusive. I used to be a fairly social girl and had quite a bi going for me, but my motivation has just decreased completely the last few years. As a result, I have had no successful relationships or friendships. I just wanna end it all sometimes honestly; why experience and live through pain compared to the alternative? When I look back, I rarely have happy moments to look at. All I can see is a whole lot of pain. How much can a person endure? There’s being strong in the face of adversity and then there’s just the world treating you unfairly. I wish I had a better life. It feels worse because I know I have the raw materials, it’s jusf so much tragedy at this point that I don’t know what to digest and how to overcome anything. Sorry if this is long.

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daytripper
@daytripper

An abusive parent can leave a trail of guilt in our subconscious mind and we keep carrying that guilt until we face it. Just like yours, My father was abusive in every way possible and I carried a guilt inside myself for so long until recently. Successful relationships and friendships actually does not fulfill the emptiness in our heart unless we step up and do it ourselves. If you did not have any happy moments, create some now, as small as they might be. Make yourself happy. Do something that connects only with you, nobody else. To be honest, life is unfair. From your ground, you see it in a way where as someone else may want what you have. Let go of the past and all the abusive memories. Forgive and forget. As long as you hold onto those memories, you will always feel the anger and anger will make you self doubt yourself. I won’t ask you to be strong because it is easy to say it but hard to do it. Just make sure that whatever you do, you do it for your present and your future. Not to compensate for your past. I tried to do that. And I got more hurt. The only way we can heal ourselves is through our love for ourselves.

snktmore
@snktmore

Well said!!

pawanism
@pawanism

Hey buddy,
Same here
So be positive, just be focused to your goals.