Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I just don’t know what to say to you. It doesn’t feel right. We were meant to be. Or maybe we weren’t? I don’t know but what I know is I really wanted us to last. Forever ♾️ you n me. Just you and me. And our rides together where you hold my hand and pull me in and ofc sing our song. Our momo dates and our evening garden walks. Us playing volleyball with a football. You taking extra care of me and giving attention to my every detail and bringing me not one but two of my fav food always. Us dancing in slo mo cz you really can’t dance, the awkward yet proud smile on your face. Handling my every tantrum and my anger outburts and just calling me love and peanut and dum dum, saving me and going to the end of the world for me. Looking at me like I’m the most gorgeous woman in this world. Staring at me while I’m talking to someone and tucking my hair behind my ear cz its coming on my face. Making stupid jokes to entertain me and acting like u don’t like my sense of humour just to irritate me but laughing like a kid over my jokes. Bringing me choc while I’m on my periods and fighting with the guard cz he was not letting me climb the wall and have fun. Seeing me as an integral part of your future. Being proud of me just for donating blood and getting annoyed over my obsession with my crushes. Listening to all my traumas and my life and sharing the same vulnerability a feat that only you gave me. Of being a best friend. I know it’s been years now and probably it’s nothing but past but uk no matter what happened later and what all ugly things you did to me, I wud still say that we were meant to be. I guess we weren’t gentle enough with each other. We were young and reckless and we didn’t handle each other with care. It’s sad I had to let you go knowing I love you. Life sucks. I wish you were mine. I wish we could do all these things I mentioned and much more. I wish we could do life together. I wish!