I hope you find someone who doesn't make
you sad at night, someone who reminds you how
much they love you every day, who laughs at your
jokes and wants to listen to your music and
genuinely wants to be with you and
doesn't make you second guess
their love for you.

Relationships

What matters to me is mine happiness  which is long lost coz triggering my emotions is easy...yet I centralize my emotions to strangers ...I lost something ..I feel it yet mending it ain't in my hands ..what in my hands is mine happiness and I am damn responsible for it..
This valentines I will be giving myself rose to make myself mine promises
I will be a doer no matter how harsh my lazy brain feels coz none can define my character unless I allow and I know am a true soul who has to build her empire for herself with a tireless attitude..I really hope whenever I see this post next..I see myself with a smile..
I love myself enough that I ain't dying bt will work upon myself .


Now&Me Activities

I'm having an argument involving a friend in my friend group, and I shared my thoughts with another friend I considered close with in the same group, only for him to show it to the rest of the group and antagonize me for what has been said. Tried to explain my position further and talk it out with him but he just left me on seen. the argument with the initial friend resolved and we are now on good terms, but it sucks that someone who I thought would at least hear me out or try to understand the entire situation before taking a side would completely ditch me like this. I understand that he's a lot closer to the other friend than he is to me, I guess I just don't feel like this is fair. 

Frustration

Who cares???

3am Thoughts

Does anyone want to sit at the marines today at night post office? I was about to go alone but then thought let's ask someone..

Raat k samme zada dard hota hai, well dard toh hamesha moujood rehta hai lekin raat m janab dard samoudra se gehra or asaan se oochan hota hai 

I have been feeling overwhelmed and sad these few weeks. My coping mechanism was really bad. I just get myself distracted with my works at the office and spent my days either sleeping. I don't know what I'm going through exactly. It was too overload. Bad days at work, self insecurities, money problems, and self destructive situations.  My best friend and me wasn't talking for few weeks. I have so much things to talk with but sometimes I couldn't and unable to let it out. I distanced myself away when I saw their responses by the time I told them I was stressed out. Last time, my best friend asked me where I have been missing for weeks. Then, I said I have been stressed out about life and works. Her answers was " you with your stress". I don't know what to say anymore. She just left me on read few days already. My other best friend wasn't talking to me after I said almost the same thing. She just left me on read but she was tweeting about her relationship. I mean I am happy that she have boyfriend already, but don't left me on read, alone here. I may need time for myself, but not being ignored and left me on read days. Sometimes I felt it kinda selfish for me to tell them my bad days because I should be keeping it by my own. I should be able to handle by myself. I should keep things to myself only.  Even they said " I am here if you need me". It kinda dark when nobody checking up on you. Not that I need their attention, but still. Last time , I bursted myself out crying in the car. Then, I'm okay. Yesterday, I cried like shit. I slept just to cope  with sadness. Don't know how to pour out my thoughts so I went here. But anyway I'm okay. But it's okay. Everyone is having bad days. Never mind. It's okay. Sometimes silence is better. 



Insecurity

Any med stus here?

Learning Self love .
Who else is here to do same 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts