I honestly can’t look at pictures of you for long because I get a knot in my throat and feel the tears coming close. I look at pictures of you and see myself, I love you so much and I hope you can feel that and I hope I’m good at showing it. When I see a picture of you I get sad and Almost cry. If I’m alone and at home I do cry. It hurts knowing I can’t be there everyday to watch you grow. I had plans for us. I’m sorry I failed. Life is really hard and it can really beat you up. I’m still trying for you honestly. I wish you could live with me, I wish I was rich so that I didn’t have to work so much to provide for you and myself. So that you can be with me, I wish I was more prepared. I love you, My first born. I don’t know if I will have more kids, I Don’t know if I have more kids out there. I want more, But what I do know is I have you and you have me. Forever Dad. Love you always.
Aryan @bluciiferr
You making me crying…
Sorry if I did… something I wrote while I was sad and had to release.
