I have totally scared myself half to dea(th)! 
Has anyone seen Red Rose 🌹?

No but where can I watch it... Seems interesting 

It’s on bbc iplayer. 
Is there a hacker genius out there that can shed light on this?

Movies

i have never known anything more quietly loud than my anxiety

3am Thoughts

I'm not anyone's first choice, I'm not anyone's favourite. People tell me I mean a lot to them but there is always somebody they will choose over me.

Teri yaadein... Mulakatein...
Main kaise bhuloon chahat ki wo barsaatein..


Thank God we became strangers again, before getting to know each other more🤍❄️

Feeling calm and peaceful, finally not sleepy anymore 😂

I am in pain. It's hell living. If there is any higher power in this universe, I beg you. Please take my breath away.  This is hell, living is torture. Stop my heartbeats. If even is there is any power, you are responsible for all this pain. Why did I was bring to this world. And why the damn hell, I was bring to thus world by somebody else, to not do what I want? To not kill myself? I was just few seconds away from end it all. It would have ended. I would have been in so much peace. But No I am still in hell. Do you listen? Or you even someone now? Or just disappeared after all this hell. Leaving me dying here? When I am already dead. But not that fullstop of all and everything. No last Breaths?

Suicidal Ideation

HI. This is gonna be long. I really had no one to talk to since depression dosent exist in a mexican household. This started around last year. I came home one day to realize there was 3 new kids in the apartment. But what I didn't realize was that I was going to raise them. This dosent seem hard but they came off from the streets so I had to teach them how to brush their teeth and wash their hair from lice. This was junior year for me. That's wasnt even the worst part my grandma died and we had her funeral the day before we got them so I never got the chance to acknowledge her death till now. Ap test were around the corner. I just lost that year. Finally at the beginning of senior year my mom took me to a doctor to figure out what is wrong with me. Surprise I got diagnosed with social anxiety, general anxiety, depression, and panic disorder. And it only got worse because my parents decided to change schools on my last year of high school. I was by myself. So to divert the pain I waz feeling I started to cut myself. Now here I am feeling lost in my own world ready to die but scared of the unknown.

Depression

I had started writing down affirmations with the thought that it'd make me positive and help me get out of the rut i had found myself in. Instead i realised how far i am from achieving my goals and it made my anxiety skyrocket more than ever lmao😭

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