I have to stay at home the whole day for self study. Since two months I have not stepped out for one or two reasons. Finally I decided that once a week I will visit cafes . But still wasn’t able to because of some reasons. Yesterday I was feeling low and I shared my sad mood to my friend. She suggested me to step out and go to places once a week at least. Now her advice is same as what I decided for myself. I told her that I thought the same but wasn’t able to go for some reasons. If tomorrow I go to a cafe and click pictures, won’t she say it to herself that it was her idea. If only I had visited the cafe before. I was too excited for my idea and was waiting to go to cafes. But now even if I go tomorrow, the credit will go to her. My excitement is replaced with annoyment.
Why are you thinking about the idea.
I mean it’s abt you.
You need to feel Good that’s why you are willing to go to a cafe.
But if u still feel so… then visit some where else.
Maybe a temple or your place to pray.
Or a park for an evening stroll.
Or any other place like tourist attractions in your city.
Or you can also go for street Shopping.
Never let alk these thoughts let you down.
You are more than wht you think sweetie. 😊
But wherever I go it still will show that it’s her idea that I am following. It’s been my idea since 1 month. She will take credit and that’s why I am no more feeling motivated to go.
I was about to post it online. After enjoying this moment I wanted to post it too. But now if by chance I go tomorrow, it will feel that it definitely was her idea.
But at the end of the day it won’t be my idea.
And in future she can dominate because she will think that I don’t have a mind of my own. She will start giving me more advices thinking I can’t think of that
