I have this strong strong urge to hurt myself. Like a cut soo deep that the blood doesnāt stop flowing and this pain and overcomes the pain from my past which was very brutally brought in front my none other than my motherā¦ I havenāt had this urge before not in my 22 years of not perfect lifeā¦ I know people cut all the time its nothing new but its first for meā¦ Iāll go with itā¦ Just wanted to say it out loud
i dont know what kinda situation you are facing. i solely i understand your feeling cause i went through a same kind of self harm feeling recently. but as far as i concern self harm wont solve anything neither it will vanish your pain rather it will pass it on with more effect than you are feeling and you wont be there to relieve those from those will feel it after you are harmed. so try to resolve the matter according to the situation cause i feel if it comes to see our Mum getting for something we do or related to ourselves it feels like we shouldnt live and end everything which is Mum but that isnt the solution rather Mum will be more hurt than anyone else.
its a lil long but i know how it feels so please reconsider the situation and dont take reckless step.
I think i secretly want to hurt herā¦ She hurts me soo much i want to hurt her a little
u shouldnāt go for itā¦I know a person who did the same thing, although the reason was different but whatever the reason wasā¦he just regrets what he didā¦coz harming yourself gets u nothing, not even peace of mindā¦so please donāt do so
Yeah regretting it now
Okay okay wait.
Firstly, do you want to talk about it?
I mean discuss about what all things are there that bother you so much that you are forced to take this step?
This platform might not give you the cure but will give you the strength to fight with all these things positively?
Please do share?
Yeah i meanā¦ Wouldnāt hurt to talkā¦ So i am gay and i failed my 12th, failed againā¦ Then appeared from a different board and passedā¦ I got cheated on by my girlfriend of fourteen monthsā¦ So my self esteem is really fragileā¦ I gave on myself, i still do occasionally give upā¦ Thinking this all ends in a not so happy ending so whatās the point but then I get back up hard and strongā¦ I study 7-8 hours a day and have big dreamsā¦ But then my mother says such things asā¦ āyou are only jealous of your brotherā ātumse nhi ho payegaā ātab nhi hua toh ab kya kar paogiā
Again with the thoughts of āwhatās the pointā
I really understand your situation and Iām so sorry you had to hear those things from your own mother.
But believe me, there is nothing better than working your ass off and achieving all those things that others believe that you never can have.
Itās more like slapping those people on their faces.
Donāt give up.
Hurting yourself will only make you look weaker even more than they think you are, which you are definitely not.
Ask yourself, do you really deserve to treat yourself the way youāre planning to, just because people around donāt believe in you?
Do you think you need to shed your blood for these people?
Or hurt yourself for these people?
Obviously no.
You have to believe in your self even if not even a single person does.
Trust me, I would have thought that youāre weak but when you mentioned about hurting yourself, I truly and genuinely believe that youāre not weak. Hurting yourself also involves a lot of courage, so why not use it to deal with these people around you and achieve better things in life that make you happy.
