Emilia @nobodymuch
I have this Internet best friend, we have known each other for 3 years. We got to know each other in a fandom that I had recently moved on from because I felt like it defined a horrible time in my life. We got into an argument because I was trying to cheer the mood up, being funny letting my inner chaos out into the texts and she didn’t want to be cheered up and she needed to study. I acted totally out of line, simply saying bye and shutting my phone off. I like her, she was the first person I would text when it hit 3pm (timezones) and we would text paragraphs about our favourite series and about episodes etc. But now I purposefully avoid her for even a week because I just don’t feel like texting or want her to text first. I am talking to her now but sometimes I feel like I don’t want to do all this anymore, cut off and live on but she is my only friend and no one talks with me. It’s bloody lonely. But then it feels like a massive weight. But then she has huge mental health issues and I don’t want to end up being the toxic one that makes something happen to her. I don’t want to be this nasty person that plays a victim. What the hell do I do?
I think u should let her go and tell her why do she knows the reason. I kind of understand you because i was on the same situation. I think you should do what’s best for u and not what’s best for her. Because every person should be a bit selfish and think about their comfort and feelings before letting others decide for u or going what’s best for others. Let her go. It will be better for u. Trust me