Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have something to say to you
And of course this isn’t going straight to your face
I mean how can i still look you in the eye-- you’ve done so much shit to me i can even bear to look at your face
You were in my friend group and i thought of you as a friend
Even though you tried to taser me i still thought of you as a friend
I came out to you, you were supposed to be my friend
I told you about my dad and how much it hurt me as a person and still you do this
Dragging me into that bathroom, pushing me on my knees, on the floor, and against a wall
and then kissed me after all you did while smiling at me crying
You’re my best friend’s boyfriend
After i told her about the time you forced my hand down your pants she told me “I should beat your ass right now”
I forgave her
I wanted to tell her about what you did but when i brought you up she was so…happy
She had a sparkle in her eyes and her face lit up
I thought to myself “I can’t tell her what he did. she’d be heartbroken. she’ll think i’m a liar”
Do you know what it’s like to look into the eyes of your best friend and hesitate
Because you know “even though i’m drowning in a pit of despair she’s never gonna believe me or worse, she’ll think i did set it up to make him look like a cheater. she’s loves him too much”
So I bit my tongue
You probably never knows what it feels like
How much it hurt me
I go home to the same thing and i come home and it’s you threatening to do it to me again
Do you know how terrifying that is
you probably don’t know that either
GOD, I would never ever say this to your face because the thought of you terrifies me
The feeling of you still hurts me
I hope that you burn
I hope that you burn in the deepest parts of hell
I hope that burn in a vat of acid
I hope that you get hurled off the largest building and land on spikes
I hope that you get just as much pain as I felt
So yeah, fuck you Keon