I have read that depression is contagious. I just realized that I was unconsciously telling my younger brother how I can possibly never see him again, implying my suicidal ideals. Now I don’t feel like talking to him anything related to myself. But as I do so, our conversation becomes dull. I thought maybe it’s better this way. If I slowly severe ties and communication with him, he won’t get hurt that much if something happens
Hey hey m here to listen you. If u ever feel like u need someone to talk to, u can always come here and share with me.
Will that be alright? I might be a bother
Well if u r asking about talking to me then yess its totally alright but if u talking about cutting ties with your younger brother then it’s not. Share your things …pta h pehle hm sochte h apne man mein rakh k ki kya fayda btane ka…but jb ek baar share krdo sb tb ek sukoon milta h …and kaafe sadness toh aise hi chli jate h
I don’t quite understand the last few sentences you’ve said. I’m sorry I don’t speak any other foreign languages
So about my brother, I think he’s very perceptive. I was worried because whenever I talk to him, I can feel the heaviness of the burden. I want him to see me as a reliable older sister but I keep thinking of negative thoughts, things like my family would be off better had I ceased to exist.
See sometimes it’s hard to share right? We sometimes think on our own that “not sharing” is better but trust me, if u will open about it, things will get better. Maybe they will take some time to understand you but they will. And might be u feel this heaviness but ask yourself, will you be happy if u start living like this?
Definitely not an easy thing to do. When you know that no one will really listen to your worries, opening up becomes impossible. It is kind of complicated. I just feel so useless. And I have been cowering. It’s just scary and risky. I fear that if I open up, I will only get my hopes up then get thrown again. It’s tiring. Endless disappointments, failures, being unable to express what I desire to say, everything is just hard and painful to the point that I feel so empty. I just want to go somewhere where no one knows me, a place where I can finally breathe
I can totally relate to u. U know just never forget “everything in life happens to make you grow.” Maybe they won’t understand but atleast u won’t regret somewhere that I wish I had shared with them… And take your time but remember u r worthy in this world. And unknowingly, your presence is important to many people in your surrounding ❤️
It seems to me that you’ve been through a lot yourself. You’re right. Everything that we experience shapes our future selves. I can say that I am willing to endure any kind of pain and suffering, as long as those experiences have meaning. Thank you. I assume you are a young lady in her late teens? You seem to be someone who is always in deep thoughts. Thank you for replying to my thoughts :)
Well yeahh I m quite impressed by your observant nature. Wishing you all the happiness for your life :)
