I have no idea what am doing rn
It’s like my body and mind goes paralysed when i think of doing a task
Let it be studying for my boards which are coming up which I haven’t started with the portion with or let it just be getting out of bed to go to the bathroom
I just can’t, my body isn’t even listening to me
I am on my periods and I haven’t changed my pad in 24 hours and still I don’t feel like getting up
I feel guilty for not studying rn and wasting time but when i do sit to study , I don’t understand anything and then i give up in a few mins and just waste time daydreaming and crying and overthinking
I am for sure gonna fail my 12th cause I seriously haven’t even studied a single chapter yet and even my basics isn’t clear , idk what’s wrong with me but i didn’t even attend my prelims on purpose and I didn’t even care , my books are incomplete and haven’t been signed
I just feel like there’s no way out now and that i am gonna fail no matter how gard i try now cause it’s too late
I just feel like going and killing myself cause I don’t even see myself in the future , i have no idea what am gonna do in the future, am such a big failure
Hey you are a strong girl mate you can achieve things please don’t feel that way
I really don’t think so , i feel so weak rn , I can’t even get up from the bed… how am o strong?
What subjects do you have? I can guide you.
Pcmb with french
All subjects untouched
Why did you take both bio and maths… just asking? Which is strong for you ? Maths or bio?
Bio
Could it be that you might be experiencing a panic attack? Sometimes that happens. 
How can that be a panic attack?
Your motivation is your responsibility and expectations of your family, I don’t have a good relationship with my family infact i live alone rn away from them and they don’t have any expectations from me and already consider me as a failure
My mom has said that she regrets giving me birth because since i was born i brought a lot of problems and family issues arrived which broke our family apart.
With all that studying is just not possible for me
I am a few steps away from killing myself or dailing 1098 or even going to the police, having anxiety attacks everyday and not being able to even breathe sometimes. I just don’t wanna deal with anything
I don’t have the will to live and studies are way far ahead of that…
Hey! Take deep breaths. No need to make haste. It won’t help. Just let us know what subjects you have and since it looks like you’re not feeling very well I would really advice you to take a nice warm and relaxing shower. Since you’re on your periods are you taking any pain medication or have a hot water bag? Also just bring in some light snacks. There is still some time for boards but you need to be physically and mentally prepared for it. For that I really need you to chill for a bit and let me know what subjects you have and what you need to prepare for which test or any upcoming deadline.
Thanks… idk why but i just vented above in this post’s comment and now reading your para made me feel calm , i have pcmb with french and i have to submit my health and physical education book on 1st
