Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have left this platform for good. Its been 4 months since i tried to see my life in a new perspective. Just when i think life will not be more harsh than this, it throws me a suprise. Tadaaa. My mom met with a head injury. And i saw my mom with all the blood flowing all over her face. I have never been comfortable looking a t blood all my life. Here iam. Seeing her like that to washing off blood from her face. Even now idk how iam. I have no effing idea. Im just doing fine so that i can takecare of her. But this incident has scared the shit out of me. Like how can she fine so that i can takecare of her. But this incident has scared the shit out of me. Like how can she manage herself if someone is not around? Why is life this hard? Like seriously? Upon all of this my brother is far away from us. And bonusss i have a toxic father who is a drunkard. The house must be a calm space for her to recover soon. But nahhhh. Nothing goes fine in my life. Life full of mello drama. And my life can be officially named as hell. I wish i could be dead right away.