I have laughed with people who have said the most terrible things about me and they think I don't know.

It's your simplicity, just ignore him...bcz hr kisi k sath ganda nhi hoya jaata

Life

Bro, I genuinely wish I was a himbo; that one clueless hotshot but no— I am someone who knows how to sex every genitalia there is in existence. Coughing tears.

3am Thoughts

Any India frdss

Aap ab puchne ko aaye hai?
Dil meri jaan!
Marr gaya kab ka..
:')
-jaun Elia 

im going through a financial crisis..i hope i could help my dad in which ever way possible

Other

The third type of lie hurts the liar the most.

-Mother, Too old for fairy tales (2022) 

Movies

Seeking happiness

Adulting

It feels weird and overwhelming to write down something I have not spoken to anyone about. Nothing seems to come in my mind now as I am writing. All I can think about is how alone I am. All my life I had few friends. In school, people never included me in their groups but everything was different in college. I had a great group of friends but once you start learning people you lose friends too. I don’t know whether I am making any sense or not. I am in college now. Final year. No friends. Alone. So alone that I have stopped going to college as I will be the only one who will be lonely there while everyone has friends. I have started to think the problem is in me. But I have never been rude to anyone nor do I speak ill about people behind their back. So why me? Why is it me whom no one likes?

Lonely

I'm losing it. I don't care about anything anymore. I wake up and it's just another day. I've probably had 2/3 hours sleep at best. I'm exhausted but I can't manage more than that. I can't turn off and fall asleep at night. 

I wake up and I just lie here. There is nothing for me to do. Nowhere for me to go. No one expecting me, relying on me... no one missing me.

It's just me. In this room that isn't mine. On this fold up temporary bed. In this life that's suddenly my existence.. because that's all I am now. Just existing. Just breathing. Just here.

No more wedding planning. No more house hunting for that perfect family home. No more security. No arms to hold me as I fall asleep at night after a long day. No plans for tomorrow. No more believing 8 years of love meant anything.

I'm just lead here. Nothing but thoughts and memories and the daydreams of the future we planned for so long it seems irreplaceable.

I'm just alone. I have no purpose. It's all gone. 

I won't get up again today. I won't eat again, I'm not hungry anymore.

I hope one day soon I fall asleep and it keeps me. It's the only thing that could want to keep me now... The only thing I have left to hope for.

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