I have heard it somewhere that if God gives us problems, he even gives us the courage to face it. I even pray that I am ready to face everything if you be with me. 

Other

Sometimes people walk in wearing a cloak of compassion that you soon realize is not real . when this happens , remember you're the owner of your home . you may escort them out the door just as you escorted them in .

Life

Imagining fictional stories, placing myself in center and comes back to reality with a side character.

Friends

Going through the first break up is difficult. Especially when you thought they were your whole future. But the reality of it is that people can grow apart. I would have rather stayed in 
 that relationship that made me unhappy instead of breaking up to start over again. He told me that we were both great people and that we're not great for each other. He knew what was best for both of us and I'm just having a hard time coming to terms with it. He means so much to be but he knew that he couldn't be the person that I needed. 

I'm trying to acknowledge my self worth and I just hope that in the future, I can be the person that I need for myself. 

Breakup

Kaise mil rha hai sabko koi....wth....love to dur koi decent insaan baat karne nhi hai and people are finding love wtf
Hate everyone

3am Thoughts

Our connection isn’t possible but I believe in my prayers ; I believe in creator . 

How do you explain a Narcisse  behavior?.... you can't... they do no wrong....

I don't know where to start. 
I was sexually assaulted many times I think I just got used to it and now I have no self-respect, I was 12 when the first one happened and 13 when the last one happened I'm still 13 actually, they were all between the ages of 15 and 18, after the assaults I stayed friends with these people and acted as if nothing had ever happened I don't know why though it was killing me and to this day I'm still friends with some of them. 
People say I'm too young to be sad before hearing my story and after hearing it they feel sick. 
I was never really happy to be fully honest as a kid I was bullied for being overweight which then led to me having an eating disorder which I'm still trying to fight to this day although most people who knew about it thought I had recovered but little did they know it just got worst when I first started not eating my hair started to fall out, now I faint nearly on the daily but I just say its low iron hiding, my mum called me pale and said I looked sick but she didn't know I was sick. 
I also have bipolar, depression, anger issues, anxiety, and dissociation which sucks, to be honest.
Most people in the school know about my trauma but I don't care, the thing that really got me mad was when this bitch decided to post a video saying I faked it all for attention like why tf would I do that where in anybody's right mind would do that FOR ATTENTION so I lashed out and started a whole argument worst part was that she was my friend...
I have tried to km multiple times and failed which is why I'm writing this but one time I ended up in the hospital after trying to OD where I stayed for 2weeks to recover, it was hell on earth I came out feeling the worst I've ever felt.
to forget about my problems I go to parties to get blacked out wasted, smoke weed and cigs, drink alone at night drowning in my own tears and doing exctasy.
I've been pushing people away lately, people who are trying to help me and staying with the people who destroy me its as if I was in a self destruct mode 


It's been so long that I haven't been happy that I forgot whats it's like and I'm lowkey scared of it 
thank you for reading my story i needed to share it with someone

Suicidal Ideation

Surajj b raha gawah mere din k qisse ka 
Chaandh toh rato ki gawahi deta hi hai !! 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts