I have had enough. I want to die. I can’t take it anymore. If there’s a rebirth, I hope I am born as an exceptionally beautiful woman who is loved by all. I wish God kills me within the next 4-5 days. I have even thought about how I want to die- peacefully in sleep by suffering a cardiac arrest and not feeling anything. God is powerful and almighty. He sees me suffer everyday for years now yet he doesn’t call me to himself. Humans never loved me. I hope God will (if there is one).