I have friends but i feel they don't give me the same priority i give them  and I'm tired of making new friends. I'm just confused to the point that i don't understand. 
Am i doing anything wrong that they don't consider me or I'm just a narcissistic person 


It helps to limit your efforts if it hurts you when your expectations aren't met, ideally you should only do as much, that you don't expect anything in return. 

3am Thoughts

Maybe it’s okey being alone and reflect about everything, I don’t think I have true friends 

Growing Up

Why is every second person over here simply a douché? Just help me know

I've made friends with two of my sisters friends. we have lots in common. they work but hardly, theirs always on social media. I've reached out to them etc but they hardly reach back out to me. I'm about to give up on them. I hardly have friends other than my online friend of 7 years. 😔. 

Friends

I feel awful. Been depressed for almost 3 weeks.
I have no friends that are able to talk to.
I don't have anyone to share my thoughts.
My discord friends seems like they just want to ignore me.

Depression

So having trouble with friendships. Two of my "homies" we met a week ago. And there was nothing to talk about. I mean there are hell lot of things to talk we are in adulthood we have don't meet often and there's always things to talk about but all we did was talk about what to eat then talk about how the food was here and there convos and just went home. Ugh it's soo draining It just feels like dragging this all and it's soo exhausting and I'm the kind of person who can't really pretend who's straightforward and the other friend is an expert at pretending and won't act like anything is wrong and then I will have to take the blood on my hands and I don't wanna give the friend that satisfaction that I left. So m just gonna keep pretending 

semi-follow up to my last thought
i never got to see Daffodil again before going out of town. sort of upset about it. like not actually but its just that i really wanted to see them and wanted to ask them the basic friendship-forming questions like fav. color and fav. animal. they were gonna give me a palm reading, i was gonna give them a tarot reading, and it didnt happen.
i gave my cousin Daffodil’s bracelet so it could be returned to them.
is this hopeless? like not REALLY hopeless, but just like, give up on maybe having a crush on them and just try to be long-distance friends? is the pining worth it? i really do sort of miss them.

Crush


 Is it just me or do you also  think that sometimes when putting alot of effort for your friends and not getting the same effort back makes you  feel weird?  Like I've never been friends with someone who actually was the  first one to text me or give surprises, gifts etc. I always doubt them that is this a sign that they don't make efforts for me?  I mean I understand that sometimes they don't get time to text first and stuff but..  It feels kinda weird to be always the first one to text, do stuff for them etc. :( 
IDk what to say about this but sometimes,  sometimes I kinda wish I had a friend like me '-' 
One time I decided to not text anyone first for a day and the next day I had 0 new messages. It's not like I need their attention 24/7 but knowing  that someone actually cares for you really means alot. I'm in search for many friends as possible to make my life worth living so if you wanna friends just tell me your snap chat if you have it  in the comments :> my snap chat is : @mithi.martolia 
I hope I'll become friends with some amazing people on this site byeeee!!  Have a great day🌸 

my friends are so fake, they couldn't hide their fake actions anymore.

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