I have changed many jobs in my life. I had science and then I pursued law. Don't even get me started on that. I am just not satisfied with anything. No job seems to be right for me. I want to settle but I don't it's just not happening for me 

Listen to your heart. Go for what you are passionate about even if it means changing your stream entirely. 

Don't get confused. Think with a relax mind. Choose as per your interest and preferences. Stay positive. 

Work

I'm unable to put in words what I'm feeling.  I'm married to my 11yrs boyfriend from past 8months. Ive been through depression twice and tried to attempt suicide thrice in last 8months. I've been through alot to convince my parents for this marriage. My mother in law was all cool n ok with this marriage but somehow she tortures me everyday with her words. Its been 8months and daily there is something or other and she makes me feel I'm worthless and i don't deserve anything.  Ive made to feel like shit. 2months back my Blood pressure reached 48. All because of depression and tension. My father in law already passed away. And that is the reason my husband doesn't utter a word against my MIL but that doesnt mean she continues to torture me everyday. 


Depression

Sometimes random talks with random people get so wonderful nd made us happy in a way, that hits different ❤️


3am Thoughts

If u have something valuable to share then i'm available 

Books

**Why should a person like X live?**
X is 30 years old and unemployed for over a year now. He was also unemployed for two years when he quit his first job. After a gap of two years, he got selected in a Masters program. His Masters in Technology degree ended last year and earned him a good GPA. He has been unemployed ever since. He has tried applying for some jobs but to no avail. He shudders at the sound of his phone's ringtone now. He did get a couple of calls for interview but he made some excuse and got out of it. Firstly, he's shit scared of interviewing and secondly he's not preparing for them. He just refuses to put in the effort to study and prepare for any interview. This unpreparedness adds to his fear.

X is really shy, introverted, anxious, pessimistic, and an overthinker. He has no idea what he should do in life and has no real interests unless you call watching movies/TV and playing video games as interests(he doesn't). He has never been in love, never been in a relationship, never experienced any intimacy. He only has a handful of friends, all of whom are working in different cities. He rarely participates in group texts with them because the question of his job hunt might come up.

Life won't change on its own unless one changes something. So, with the kind of issues that X has and his complete unwillingness to change, isn't suicide the best option for him?

P.S: He isn't going to go through with it because: (1) He can't do that to my family, (2) He's too much of a coward. He tried tightening a belt around his neck a few months ago, but let go when the blood to his face stopped flowing.

Suicidal Ideation

I am bored

Hey!! So I was thinking about how 2020 was such a tough year to get through but then I tried thinking about a day which was actually good. 

I was trying to figure out this cookie recipe for so long but I got something wrong everytime. But this one day I figured out that it was actually my weighing scale that was dysfunctional and ahhh I got the perfect cookies that day! Since then I've been only baking cookies.

Share your one good day in 2020 and let's try to forget how difficult 2020 was!

Happy

Hello to evryone
so ,i just want to tell that i am a person who is working hard for my goals but many tims i got jealous of other people that why are they ahead of me. sometimes i even jealous of my real brother. and i m feeling very down that how can i even jealous of my own brother. can anyone please suggest me how should i overcome from this jealousy and feel happy always of me and others. never jealous of anyone and no thinking so muh.

Mental Health

College farewell is all about cherishing memories of your college life. I neither made friends nor any memories so I'm choosing not to go to my farewell. Am i doing right? There's absolutely nothing to look forward to going to classes when no one really texts you and ask if you're coming or not. Same with the farewell. I made a lot of efforts to make friends but I couldn't just fit in and make my place. Even the ones that seemed good friends chose to ignore for whatever reasons. 

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