I have been trying to get a hold of my tear and I want to hide my reaction. but my face betrays. I want to boldly answer and pretend that doesn't affect me anymore but my voice trembled. I hate myself for it. 

Whenever they hurt my feeling, I can't help myself. I can't hold my tear and they says "there you go cry baby". Maybe from their pov I maybe wrong. It's hurt somuch.. nobody think from my pov. How I am feeling. At the end, I am alone. 

Bullying

Hey Shivay this side. 
Earlier username was @Shivay2595 
A Couple of days before my account got banned. Still not able to know why.
Lost all my friends.
So if anyone of you sees this text me.
I know it's been long and I tried to come sooner but it is what it is.. 

Friends

TW: ED today’s been really bad, I hate the fact that my family comments on my weight, I know to some people ‘skinny’ might be a compliment but to me it’s not. I really struggle with eating.

Eating Disorder

Frustrated 

Anger Issues

Should we confess our feelings to someone who doesn't feel the same....is it worth it

Depression

We got a proposal through a matrimonial site. My mom and his mom had discussions for 2 days and then I talked with the guy on phone.. and I met this guy day before yesterday.. everything went right.. our vibes, thoughts were matching. Hi told me that He left his job and chose his career path as musician.. i was okay with it.. his sister had a divorce still I had no problem with that.. the meeting went well.. I got positive vibes from him as well.. today his mother informed us that kundli ie horoscope is not matching so we will stop here.. I felt so bad that I was considering the guy with all his choices where girls generally do not get ready if a guy's career is little bit off beat but I was ready because I considered his nature and vibes and he as a human.. but I received this horoscope not matching reply.. Is horoscope that important over your intuition or instincts? It is demotivating me as a good person who I am..

Life

Sad life ,toxic thought


I feel lonely.. I have only one friend and we were talking and txting with each other regularly. But from past few days his offline college started .. even I started my job training.. yes we both have other busy schedules maybe colg or work. Even though I'm busy I make sure I make time for him and txt him or call him *only after his colg hours* so that I won't disturb him. But he always spends more time with his college friends and goes home by night 9.. after that he will says I'm tired.. I will have my dinner and get back to you.. but then after dinner he says I've not watched tv from morning I'll watch some shows and my mind will get refreshed by that and I'll txt u after the show. On the other end I will be waiting waiting and waiting for him and he goes to sleep watching tv. The nxt morning he says I was really tired so I slept off I'm really sorry.
This really makes me feel unwanted.
Even though I have a great family.. I want   my friend back.... I don't know if I'm expecting too much from him or whether he's totally busy .

What do you think about how long we should take to be in a relationship again after breakup? Is there a thing too early, if you meet someone after a month? 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts