I have been single for a year now and recently i am feeling so much lust and sexual thoughts and my mind is always diverted..is it something normal?

 Please ignore I really just need to vent, I completed my graduation last year and took a a gap year, did some internships here and there and prepared for law entrance, the thing is I passed but my marks are not enough for the university I wanted which was a government one which has less annual fees and because of that i had to take admission in a private one which is COSTLY my parents have no issue funding this for me but i am hesitant,I just didn't wanted for all of that to go this way . I don't know what to do with my life anymore. This makes me feel suffocated. I don't want to sound ungrateful, I just wanted to do things less flashy and on my own

College

Ever since I was really little, my dad has told me that “boys are a waste of time” and they’ll distract me from school. But then he has the audacity to tell me that “when I get married” or “when I have my own kids” I’ll understand whatever he’s talking about.
I know for certain that he is the roof of my commitment issues and he’s scared me away from ever being in a relationship, or close to people in general.
He’s started telling me about how miserable adults who aren’t in relationships (mainly those who don’t have kids) are. How they’ll never know the true happiness and purpose that comes with raising a child or nurturing a relationship, as if he hasn’t caused me to be exactly like those people.
I am asexual (I don’t experience sexual attraction), so it’s bold of him to assume I’d give him blood-related grandchildren in the first place.
In addition to that, I’ve expressed my disinterest in children of any age. Every time I’m told a sentence that starts with “when you have your own kids...”, I say that the thought of raising a child:
1. Scares me
2. Doesn’t sound worth it to me
But my parents don’t listen. My mom’s told me I’d get over it, but I’ve felt this way since I was 8-or-so. They just can’t comprehend that I don’t like spending time with kids, don’t like the thought of being pregnant, and don’t like them telling me that I WILL and I MUST have kids being that I’m only a teenager.

Children

Ok so I’m 21 and I haven’t achieved anything in life yet. When will I be proud of myself?

Anxiety

Any good movie to recommend? Mostly action, SciFi would work

3am Thoughts

I can't get over someone. He was a huge part of my life, I loved him but he fell in love with someone else so I walked away from his life. Life has become too difficult to handle. I'm losing hope.

Gehri thi raat
Lekin mai khoya nahi, 
Dard bohot tha dil mei
Lekin mai roya nahi, 
Koi nahi hai mera
Jo puche mujhse ki
Jaag raha hai kisi ke liye
Ya kisi ke liye soya nahi.

relatable.?🤧

Recently watched "Archive81" ..somewhat felt incomplete and confused..do anybody believe this strange occult practices?? Or other world exists ???

Movies

This Is Pure Love  
I know this is pure love when I am with you,
You know that it is true.
I know this is pure love that I can feel,
I know you are the real deal.
I know this is pure love because you make me feel loved,
And I don't feel shoved.
I know this is pure love when you are around, 
Because I can feel the passion that surround. 

I know this is pure love because your love is my life I can see,
And of everything that makes me happy I know its love that I wish it to be.
I know this is pure love cause my love is true and it will never change,
And that is not strange.
I know this is pure love cause I am only in love with you,
And it has been way overdue... 

I love you 

I do not love you as if you were the salt rose topaz or arrow or carnations that propagate fire.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between shadows and the soul.
I love you like the plant that does not bloom, but carries within itself, hidden, the light of those flowers.
thanks to your love, lives darkly in my body, a certain solid fragrance that has risen from the earth.
I love you without knowing how or when or from where .
I love you straightforwardly , without complexities or pride, in which there is no you nor I , 
so close that your hand upon my chest is mine,
so close that your hand upon my chest is mine.
so close that your eyes close as mine dreams .
-Divyansh Gupta

(Feel free to use it , I would be  happy to have made your days better with your partner 😁.)

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