I have been in depression due to family problem since 6 years. I’ve taken meds. I meditate and exerted. But depression is on and off. Sometimes I do great and feel great. Sometimes I hate everyone and everything in my life including myself. That’s not the point. I am recovering.
The problem is my partner of 10 years relationship has become very aggressive. When I tell about my problems to him which is unrelated to him, he is supportive. When I tell my feelings about him, he gets very aggressive. The words he uses, his body language, everything when he is angry give me anxiety attack.
Last night during our fight, I was breathless 3 times while crying. When I feel breathless he tries to take care of me. When I look better he again goes back to the same aggressive behaviour.
I don’t know what to do.
Families are pushing us to get married. I feel stuck.
Sending sparkles of love at you and I hope things get better! Love and hugs