Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have been going to college from last August but I am still struggling to make friends.
So what happened is that we had offline online hybrid online classes from september 2021. Due to personal reasons I could only go to college by the end of October. By the span of nearly 2 months, most people had already created their own friend groups. My roommate also arrived on the same day as me, so I thought maybe we could be friends. For the first 2 days she talked to me a bit… not alot…yet still I was fine with her. Then one fine day she decides she wants to go for clubbing with one of our mutual friends. I was not really interested, hence I decided not to go. She went out at 6 pm and finally reached at 11 pm. When she came back, I realized she didn’t go for clubbing as she had a lot of shopping bags with her. I felt a bit bad because she didn’t call me but then I decided to let go of it. But from that day onwards she started avoiding me. I didn’t know what to do. I knew a few other people in college but still I wasn’t close to anyone. I tried talking to other people but still I felt like intruding them. And then I got sick. This is the point when i felt most lonely. I didn’t feel like doing anything and just felt sad. I did recover within a few days but after this incidant I felt even more lonely. We had several functions in college such as fresher’s party and diwali celebrations where I just went alone. Loneliness hit more hard when I saw other people sitting and having fun. I really tried interacting with more people but I just felt likr intruding other’s friendship groups
This experience has left me permanently scarred and i just don’t even feel like interacting with anyone anymore. Sorry for the long paragraph. I know this story dounds a bit off…I wanted to dhare more incidants but I already feel like I have written alot.🙂

s not really interested so I saif