Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have been feeling kinda weird lately, I am detached from so many things it’s starting to sound crazy. Although I am proud of myself from kinda person I was a year ago, I have had quite an improvement. But, I am just not able to get few things right. I have been single for almost 5 years (yes, it’s amazing being single and I wouldn’t have it any other way) but it’s starting to feel like a decoy for all my trauma. And it’s not that I am not getting myself out there but it’s just not clicking anymore. So, I use bumble (not regularly, anymore) and I do come across amazing people. And one thing I have realised is that everybody thinks that everything has to end with sex! I was in that phase and I am done with it. I want to connect with someone, talk to them, know them and all that you know? But the thing is even though I meet good people, I would intentionally look for red flags, like seriously because deep down I am scared of getting hurt so I hurt myself before hand. Amazing trick, you should try. And it’s starting to bug me a lot. I don’t want to do that. I can only do extremes, either ignore them or be clingy.