I have been feeling extremely lonely for a long time. It is not that I have no friends. I do have friends and family but I rarely feel connected to anyone. I feel like I don’t have anyone to share any of my feelings with. I always cry alone.
Today was particularly difficult. I always think I am doing well in studies and even end up helping my friends, but in the end they always get ahead and do better and I am left behind. Even though I help with all their doubts.
I lock myself in the bathroom and cry alone. I get anxious and cannot breathe. I feel like I don’t want to be alive. I feel like hurting myself.
Its ok to feel that way sometimes. I cry myself to pillow many nights pretending to be ok very next morning. But if this feeling continues take some professional help. Remember none of us are perfect. Having people around you doesn’t mean you cant be lonely. You needs to feel secured and peace around them.