I have anxiety and childhood trauma. I have noticed this pattern in my relationship. Monthly once I get very insecure and overthink and pick a fight . And once the fight is over I feel more loved. I know I shouldn’t fight but once in a month I keep doing it. I asked my bf for reassurance but he said that he can’t keep giving reassurance if I keep doubting his love.

Good that you know about it. If you go in circle, you will always be at same place after some time.

Boyfriend

from middle school to college, it’s been a long time hasn’t it? we never had a healthy genuine relationship but the genuine feelings were there. we both loved each other and we dated yet it was nothing but toxic. always on and off. you’d get mad if i spoke to other guys. you had a gf once and yet told me you loved me at the same time. i was mad at that. i moved on, became close to someone else. you didn’t like that even though you still had a gf. you broke up with her, contacted me. i gave in. we broke up. i gave in. we broke up. on and on and on again all through high school. you told everyone you broke up with me, that’s not true. you told everyone i threatened to kill myself if you broke up with me, that’s not true. you did that and i kept quiet. even then we never ended on bad terms. we don’t hate each other. and now? you just broke up with your other gf right? now you’re coming back again? i wish you would just leave me alone. you’re not good for me. why do you always choose me to hurt after something goes wrong? you don’t love me, don’t you realize that? stop telling me you do. 


Other

isn't it lovely, we all alone ?.

Lonely

I really wish to be dead by now..
Something rushing inside refusing to express..
Just want to be dead...


Depression

How to handle heart break and stop thinking about that person?

Cheating

bike rides or car drives in delhi.


Travel

So first of all let me tell you that my mental health is total trash right now!
To be true I am a pre medical student and I have prepared for this exam from last 2 years and  I think I am a brilliant student according to my grades but now I have developed great anxiety and stress level and for these 2 years I have sacrificed my social life and even my friends, I don't have any friends now to talk and share my worries, sometimes this makes me feel like crying (I hope I will get some genuine advice from the site). I just sat on my study table and studied these 2 years and just due to that I have gained weight  which as a result decrease in my my self confidence(I don't have time to exercisebecause I already has a lot to study for my upcoming exam) and now I'm like I don't go out I don't talk to anyone. Moreover I'm a person with such a personality that I don't ask for help to anyone whom I know because I feel it awkward I don't know why,  I don't share my problems with my family because I know they will worry about me and ask me how you're feeling in every 1 or 2 minutes and I don't want to see them worried for me. I am such an emotional person that I cry very easily, I'm a great over thinker, and recently due to these I've started to develop panic attacks.
When I see other people having really good friends whom they can share everything who also receive help from their friends and I mean some people literally say all they have is the good friends whom with whom they can share literally everything in their life but then I feel like I don't have even a single friend whom I can share anything with and as you grow up you feel like there are many career options in your path and you feel like doing everything I mean when you start to develop your talents you feel like you can grow in this also and in that also so why not to do everything.  I hope you can understand that as we grow up, we feel a rush of emotions and thoughts in our mind and we can't figure it out what to do in that case. And recently due to all this peer pressure from my studies and high stress and anxiety level 
I've also developed one new thing that is panic attacks. As you know in today's era is full based on the social media and all when you see someone really beautiful in their looks in their body then there will be a moment when you will feel inferior to them, you start to compare yourself with them.
 There are burst of emotions and thoughts in my brain that I can't figure out what to keep and what to throw.
Now due to all these things every day feels like a burden it feels very suffocating sometimes, it feels like every day is a struggle and and it's hard.
Please help genuinely.

Stress

Main bahut depressed hoon. Please help me ! I can't sleep... Can't even Breathe. 🥺

3am Thoughts

This is for nice guys ..

Don't be a nice guy everyone must broke you 
Become a devil 
Don't fall for every next girl 
Learn to say NO 

Khtm !

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