I have an younger sister , we are totally different from eachother in Everything she doesn't likes me i don't know why she is not happy in my moments and that hurts alot , i love her very much but she acts in such way that i don't feel like expressing it to her .. i dont how we will be in next year's but i just want see her happy , can any suggest to improve your relationship , i have tried everything but get the love or can't create the bond i wanted to be with her ....

I have tried to talk to her but things are always been like this it's not just it it come in middle

The reason is you are trying too hard. Don't try it hard . The feelings will get conveyed and you won't even know. For me it happened when I went for college away from home. 

Don't wry man everything will be alright, give as much as care, love etc etc, don't expect anything in return...you will be really feel happy for what u r doing...

Coming Out

Bike ride yes,
You maybe


Life

The lockdown in delhi has been extended, I understand we must be anxious and restless, but we'll get through this. Stay safe❤️

Mental Wellbeing

Hi, Since I moved to a new place 10 years ago, I have become lonely with no friends. My best friend is far away, busy with her own life. Most of the times, I just crave for a friend calling me and asking " How are you doing?". Most of my life, I have been a listener and I could rarely open up to someone. 

Lonely

any1 wanna connect, talk for night then disconnect at morning??

3am Thoughts

As a student, I was always sidelined in the school... I was that one silent kid who has no friends... And whom no one adores... Like teachers who adore those cute kids
I've been like that forever
No matter how good I danced or how I topped the exams I was never appreciated until that one day a teacher noticed me... 
I am truly grateful to him for being soo kind to me... He treated me so nicely... Like I felt valued and worthy jn his presence... 
Then I happened to leave my school... Since then things have only gotten worse
Covid came and for straight 2 years could not get out of my house... That also affected my academics and mental health of course... On 2023 I left my home for coaching... I was so naive and desperate to make friends and hanging out with th that i completely forgot the purpose of getting there... As a result I failed the exam
Now I am preparing for it again but this time through self study.. I am broken 💔... 
I feel numb, uneasy, even thought of giving up on life but somewhere I want to do a lot... I have big dreams... Like so much happened but there's still some spark within that never let's me give up... Today is one of those days where I m getting flashbacks of all the worst that has happened to me... Where I m judging myself for looks, for being dumb, for being a mess... At this point I feel physical pain in my chest coz it's so heavy to carry... 
I pray to God that no child should go through this... May God give strength to the one's who are suffering... And i m really sorry to everyone whom i've hurt Knowingly-unknowingly... I hate to see people cry... I mean even if they are bad as a person at that moment they are so fragile... I breaks my heart... If you ever see anyone cry please be there... Hold their hands and comfort them... Even if they wronged u... Loneliness is the worst! 



i saw this reel (new trend) with the song "enchanted" by Taylor Swift, the caption goes like this-
me: i don't feel like being in a relationship, i am not ready yet and I am confused.
him: don't worry, i'm also not ready for relationship yet.
me: *song plays in bg* "please don't be in love with someone else"
and that really hit hard, i felt that-
like for whom i felt that about their feelings, i've got no idea but from my side i felt that "please don't be in love with someone else" even though i am not ready for a relationship and for a fact ik i'm never gonna be. Even in future, if i were to fall in love with them, i'd never get in a relationship because i've huge huge huge trust issues and commitment issues. Also,  I am an asexual (and exploring more about myself) and they are straight but sometimes I get the vibe they like me too, but they are very kind in general, so like idk? But yeah, whenever i feel like they are making me blush by messaging me something i try to change the subject. Idk, i just wanted to let this all out. 

Confusion

Dear ex best friend
with me losing you,

I also lost the one  

* who was able to detect my bad mood and change it to good, in no time.
*who would be ears,
whenever I needed to be heard.
*who,my empty heart would look for,
whenever it needed a refill of love.
*who would dial me out,
in the middle of the night,
just to cry over the picture 
her crush posted with some other girl.
*who would save a seat for me in class.
*who would lend me her hotspot, charger, earphones, hoodies, sneakers and her immense support and understanding.

*who would share her ott platforms’s subscription with me.


 Dear ex best friend,
Losing you was never easy for me because losing you straight away meant,
I no more have you,
to get my snacks, stuff, pain and securities stolen away from me.

Loss

Grand Rising. 

Meditation feels hard because we have made distraction easy. 

When meditation becomes easy distraction becomes hard.

Have a great day!

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