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I have always been that person who was know to be cold and heartless, someone who has no feelings and especially romantic ones. I was the girl who would break the hearts of the guys I was involved with (I did not mean to do that but, I cannot force myself to love someone)
I spent a very long time like that. Until one day, I searched about aromantism, and I thought I was aromantic. However, this week, some weird things have been happening to me. I was getting lonelier every day. I longed for a particular person and that particular person was not even special. I just liked their presence around me. I know that my feelings are difficult to decipher and for 20 years I have never felt something like this. Now, I am afraid of loneliness, afraid of not seeing that person but I don’t want to see them. Even my body is rejecting these strange feelings, my heart is beating fast and I feel depressed, I sleep a lot and I don’t want to eat anything because I am nauseous. Deep inside, I think I know what I am feeling. Yet, I keep rejecting it because the person I am thinking about may be toxic to my independence , my self confidence and my perception of things. I am a strong independent woman, and I surely don’t need any kind of feelings to stand between me and success, what should I do?

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ava

You are so cute and important. Give importance to yourself others will give you definitely .Don’t allow your sister to treat you like nothing. Think you are everything. Watch tv, make friends, go outside and focus on the study you will feel good or maybe better.

ava

Do as you want to be. With time you will get a better person.