I have a zero tolerance with my elder brother .He is like 24/7 jokes and pranks .I can't even understand but  I seriously can't stand around my brother ,I don't want to hate him but it is hard to be around him so I get angry with him and easily annoyed by him .I know it's just his nature but when I we were kids he was nothing like that but now he is too nosey and pushy .

I UNDERSTAND.. my younger brother is always just joking around and trying to take everything in a funny way. It can get pretty annoying at times. I know what you mean. What helped my situation was that I started talking to him VERY politely... I made him feel like he is respected and he started respecting me back...

Anger Issues

Why did my parents always support my elder sister and always blame me. They raised her like she can do whatever she wants and expect me to keep quiet and not defend myself. They spoiled her. She acts in front of everyone and manipulates them to hate me behind the curtain.
I don't know if my parents are too blinded by her manipulations or if they chose to ignore them. I honestly can tell because even if I point them out they change the topic against me. All my relatives don't know her true self. My parents raised her as a devil in disguise. They are too blinded to see me. I wish I was never born. I can't take this discrimination anymore. I just want to go away and live on my own and find someone who sees me for who I am.

Family

I dont know how to describe myself sometimes i feel i am people pleaser. So Long story short. Due to some reasons My brother is avoiding me like talks less and all and its strange Coz he never does this now he also has A lot of Stress and Life Going on for Himself yet. He is All Okay with others and Less talketive with me. Now this thing Keeps on bothering me because i Have not Done anything Like Nothing then why And He is All ok with others and I dont feel Like Going And Asking Him coz i do have My self respect.
Should I keep worrying or just c

Confusion

I used to cry and share problem with my sibling. Thought will stay together with parents and sab khush rahenge. But my sibling left to overseas for studies and job. My sibling knows how I’m always tensed and worry yet he chose this way. He tells me to not be so sensitive and that my problems are tolerable as people have it worse. He is very funny gives good talks but lately I have been feeling that our talks have shortened and now I don’t share any issues with him with fear he will call me weak. Infact I don’t share with anyone as it’s draining. But lately whenever his call comes I don’t feel like talking and pass the call to mummy. Been a month like that. He too doesn’t text me or ask much. Just hi hello types. 

3am Thoughts

How to behave in a matured manner?
I am 19 and I have a younger brother.we fight for every single thing. He's quite dominating.My parents ask me always to behave myself because I am the eldest.what to do?
By the way I am not writing this just because  fed up of this and all..its nothing like that...I just wanted to find the answer..that's all

Personal Growth

Hey! 
Today I'm going to share something with you. 
So, when I was little my family didn't liked me at all but they liked my brother. Why? Coz, he's a boy, he cares about everyone, he listens to everyone. Whenever he does something wrong he always puts his fault on me and I was the one who was scolded. This happened for many years, every month, every week. So, no one loves me. Whenever my brother cries everyone is there for him but when I know one is there for me. Whenever I have a fight with my brother and he hits me then no one see's him but when I hit him everyone scolds me. And my grandmother and grandfather they always scold me but not brother. Everytime I see people with their family I feel so jealous it's just I don't have a nice family who loves me. 
You know, my father is a doctor and I know he's busy but he's not busy at home, he always ignores me and is always on his stupid phone. You know father's love their daughter the most but my father he's opposite. And all he cares about is his phone and biology and marks and first place. 
And my mom she also doesn't care about me, she thinks that I'm the one whose being bad but actually she's one whose being bad. I can't share anything with her coz all she do is to tell people that her daughter is the worst. No mother does this. 
My family doesn't allow me to have a pet, to makeup, to open hair when I'm going outside, to talk to boys, to wear nice dresses. They doesn't allow me to do anything. I've always wanted to do all these but I can't coz I want them to know that I'm a good girl, I don't cry in front of them coz I want them to know that I'm a strong girl. They have already planned everything, what I have to do or what I don't. I can't even become something what I want like an engineer,or a scientist or an idol, singer, they want me to become a doctor. I wish I wasn't in this world, I wish I die. Even God is not helping me so I have decided to give up on God. 
And about my friends, I don't have any friends, coz they are jealous of me because their boyfriends like me, because their best friends like me, teachers like me, I'm beautiful, I'm good at singing, dancing, painting. They really hate me and talk at my back. 
Sometimes I think I've been cursed to whatever I'll want, I'll never get that and it really is true. I wanted friends but I don't have any, I wanted my family to be together but it is not because of my father coz he loves another women but not my mom and I can't even tell this to my mom because I'm scared that she'll hurt herself coz when I was little by mistake she knew it and she was going to kill herself but because of us she didn't die. That women keeps destroying my family and I can't do anything I don't know why my father likes that women I've saw her talking with my dad and I don't know what to do. 
I've always wanted three things in my life and those are FAMILY, FRIENDS and LOVE. I truly want these three. I wish someone was there who can help me. 
Please

Depression

Are we suppose to love family no matter however they are as person..????
You know I love my family but idk if I like them anymore, so what happened is as I grew I started questioning things and their behavior and I just want to share something here....
My younger brother is not ideal kid he is very arrogant, can’t control his anger and don’t listen to anyone, does only what he wants and sometimes I feel responsible that I should advice him if he is not going on right path but he being him self it’s very hard to be calm with him and as I have my own shit to deal with I end up lashing out on him and say some mean things that could affect him (he doesn’t show that but obviously if someone say this things about me I would feel bad) ,so I feel such a hypocrite when I do this things(my intentions are good but I always end up saying worse possible things)...

But I want that he opens up to me if he is going through something or why he is behaving like this what is the reason of him being angry all the time, how should one do this how to do this serious talk..

I don't feel so good.
i had just completed my assignment and had decided to go to my parent's room and spend some time before I resume my work. 
I hate the fact that my brother is addicted the online games. and the person who taught him is our dad. 
I don't care if my dad wants to spend more time with my brother. I don't get jealous at all. 
as usual, I started annoying my brother when he was playing with dad.
What made me sad was that he started comparing me to my brother who is six years younger than me that also regarding our intelligence.
there have been so many times when he always finds his son correct when he knows that his son is wrong. 
he keeps on finding my mistakes but not my brothers. it is said that ppl who love u correct your mistakes the most, but I think my dad proved it wrong. 


So every week My brother Has to go out to chill with his frnds every sat and sun and be distrubs my sleep at 5 am every week to take care of his child. I am frustrated by this. Coz no one cares about my sleep and my things. I sleep at 2 am and then i have to wake up for him at 5 am. I am not his care taker he should take responsibility. This happens and afterwards i cant sleep i am awake it becomes hard to fall asleep again. why If somebody does something for u dosent me u have to take advantage always. And Family members are also as i am girl U cn sleep afterwards its just about 2 days. Why u guys wake Up i will see. WHY i have to do this. I m frustrated coz i dont like my sleep getting affected every weekend. Being a girl and doing this dosent mean I have to do this always. Its about me too.

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