i have a crush on a guy who doesn't even notice me.
It's frustrating but i don't want to fight for his attention.

I did initiate the talk, we had a good conversation once.
But after that we got busy and now I don't want to start the conversation again.

I will try to do that, but I don't want to initiate the conversation again.

Start with a good friendship. Have good conversations with him. You both will get to know each other more and he will realise one day.

Crush

Aur kya hutiyapa chal rha h life me

3am Thoughts

Really feeling low . I don't why . All I'm saying in my head is 

"Whenever I needed a companion or a shoulder to cry on no one came forward. No one really liked me as their friend. I was treated so badly that I started isolating myself from talking to people in real life. And i started isolating myself from involving in group activities and talking to friend groups. I'm gonna start University soon I'm still scared of people and i don't know if I'll make any friends. People made me feel that I'm a burden even my parents. I was even treated badly on my 16th birthday. Everyone from my past are happily in friend groups living happily without regretting anything they've done to me. Why am I suffering till now from the stuff they did to me ? 


I've honestly been tired of ppl telling me to forget all of this , meditate and all but nothing is working. 

Please do not suggest meditation in the replies please 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Bullying

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Hi there 😄 

Iam 45 year female, i got married at the age of 17 with 40 years old person it was arranged marriage . After getting married he rarely was with me as i was too young i didn't know anything even sex he raped me on first night itself he told if u don't allow i will inform ur parents ,i never loved any person i started liking my husband but he never got attached 3 months he did sex with me later told i look like small girl , as i was kid he use to buy food and dresses and i was very happy with him he used to lock and go to offs and will comeback after 3 days like this 3 years went i started fighting with him so he joined me to hostel for further studies as i go then again fights later came to know tt married in 2nd puc,i studied and i got bank job posted in other state later on suppose ground i got transferred to my husband place. My in-laws started asking abt kids but we didn't had sex. I can't tell anyone so got IVF done and I got one baby life was going smoothly in all this times my husbands sister son helped me I was only daughter heand there was no much gap between us only 4years he wil call me aunty he supported me in carrier and all he was like my own brother son guide and everything .he encouraged me in carrier so I got promoted as manager .he was preparing for civils at the time despite of attempts he didn't got through so he want to start buisness i gave him loan later he want to start software company with his two friends I gave loan again though papers are not correct more over his dad is thasildar so in worst case he may pay like that days went through he got project of3 crores so he needed45lakhs i sanctioned loan on my own risk hoping that in advance he will repay full  amount.he gave bribe later it got cancelled so amount as gone his marriage fixed he changed totally and he told he can't repay i went to his parents and begged they asked with whose permission u gave loan but when he is running company they didn't know from where that amount came.bank inspection started and I am in trouble sleepless nights crying and all , everyone in bank are like I used that money and all I was very low under depression ,helpless thattime my officer  was there it was covid time he was bachelor I felt bad that he was not getting food from anywhere so asked him to come home and have food he told he can't come inside but will take tiffin.he is younger than me 12years .sohe used to come talk like this happened for 6months intake we used to talk10minus latee15and laater2 hours sometimes or4 hours also but only official mattersschool days or college or planning of branch as he was my marketing officer, he started helping me in household works my husband got retired and he shifted to Village and alone i was managing,dad expired and my mom used to take of my kid,i started sharing all my problems he supported so life was like little ok atleast someone is there to listen my problem v both started to neet executives and planning to solve how to solve my problem , one day he told he likes me nd he loves me he want to give me what and all I lost in my life he will keep me happy but until he will get transferred to his place ,swear on God i never had sex for12years and I didn't accepted him for sex,i want one person to share i wanted care, attention,love one shoulder when i told ok he wanted to have sex with me I was not prepared but was afride if I say no i will loose him also he started touching me on roads also so I only told better to book room so been there covid time my mother and daughter went to Village as her school was not there I was alone he started coming inside house it was most happiest days in my life he cared me loved me forr3 months almost live-in  my bank issues started increasing otheraide he also started changing for everything scolding using very bad words randi and all started beating me I can't tell anyone,bz it's external martial affair already I lost respect in bank now family but I love him a lot morethan my self sometimes morethan my daughter also sometimes he lovs me like anything sometimes he scolds and beats me .i used o think enough he will come and beg and will say without me he can't live later I will accept this happened for 2years he got transferred to his native i was very upset still i bought him Watever he wants and all i used to give him so many gifts also,he left me that day i cried a lot a lot but he was even not bothered he just left that day also at airport he scolded me that I didn't packed his luggage properly he is not bothered that he is going to leave me permanently he left.second day i called him he didn't spoke to me properly he started ignoring when I call and fight he is like c u fight that's y I don't feel like talking to you, initial days of relationship he told he has to get married once he got married he won't have physical relationship with me but he will be there for me for lifetime .i told ok neither I want to spoil his life, but now he is not ready to talk he didn't even asked how am I,he told he doesn't have time for me his family is priority iam nothing. I was there for him atleast for few days or monthm i thought he  will be normally talking suddenly i become alone totally helpless during that tough time bank fired me from work immediately i called him he told tum ghatiya ho that's y this happened I a totally helpless, still i thought he was angry on me so i went to his place to do course for my future i called him he abused me he told I am blackmailing him and all i begged him not to do like this he came to meet me one day thought all our sfights will be stopped once he saw me I just wanted one ending where I don't want to feel even he cheated me but there also he didn't spoke to me propy as v both met at metro so i only asked book room ,i want to talk to him fight with make him understand he booked v room we went there 15 minus he was wit did physical normally his anger used to comedown if he does physical i was wait now will talk peacefully but he told need to vacate room i was upset cried and started fighting he beated me kicked me,i came out of the room i feel like iamprostitue even with them people will spend more time.i lost everything in my life.now also I love him a lot he was only person who cared and loved me but i can't call him. My daughter what mistake she did .bank i gave loaan i did mistake so got punishment. But loving him he told I played sympathy card and i mused him as tissue paper iam ghatiya aurat i know how to play with people's.iam blackmailing him and all.i left him but daily I am dying i want to die  but I am worried abt my daughter now no income,no work nothing only depression no one is there my husband is giving some amount for maintenanast everything waiting to die


Depression

I am from a family that been through generational dysfunction... For years I went through emotional and physical abuse. U can call a lack of emotional validation a form of abuse too. All my life I had to underplay my life to make my sister feel more comfortable in her life. Unfortunately, I am now old enough to realise I shouldn't have done that.Now I'm 29, a new mom and have no career in place. I'm very loved n supported by my husband, but I feel the prime years of my life when I could have done things for myself I spent solving other people's problems. Now when I realise this also I feel the need to help my sister plan her wedding. She is my elder sister, I got married before her since I found someone I loved n wanted to run away from my horrible sisters and her tantrums that were emotionally exhausting everyday. She left the wedding right after my mangalsutra was tied...she never helped with my wedding shopping or any wedding work but not only did she not help she made it extremely difficult to please her also... I had to manage everything myself since my parents are old.
Now when she is getting married she wants me to pitch in, I really don't feel like it. I'm not sure I even want to attend the wedding because of all the trauma I went through around my own wedding. It's too triggering.

I don't want any advise on how to patch things up with her. I don't intend to. I am writing that so that you don't waste your time.

Why is that people who are narcissistic cannot remember the damage they have done to others but someone we feel like we need to help them. Even when they have ruined so much in our own lives.

Family

my current situation is pretty weird and confusing. so i recently came out as a bisexual and was lucky enough to find someone just as me, but i'm afraid i'll get hurt coz all of my past relationships [with boys] have turned out pretty traumatizing that i just can't be calm. i really like her, have known her for more than 2 years and i want this to work, but i cant be calm coz it feels like a first relationship just with scary bed time stories. any advice how should i deal with it?


LGBTQ

I am new here and someone proposed me here. Like wth dude 🤷‍♀️

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