I hate shit that's one sided.
It may be friendships or relationships...I hate it

Yes it does, specially when they only like you because you keep them "entertained" lmao

Mental Wellbeing

I have very few friends but they are really close to me. When I joined college it took me sometime to make friends cuz I am a little shy and hesitant . I can really get along with someone if they approach me first and I even know that won't workm it's just that I need time to open up. In college also I didn't have a very big group but in lockdown I realized that grp is really not made for eachother ...we know each other for not more that a year. Luckily I am close to one of them and we really get along but she has diff career path and won't be together next yr . I was looking forward to making more friends and improving myself in the second year but due to the lockdown all my plans are gone in vain. A few friends I made in college more like acquaintance have lost touch. I feel really lonely at times but can't do anything due to the lockdown. 

Friends

Shall i just stay away and create fake scenarios or just go and pretend Asif i don't observe anything and that i don't care  ? 

Confusion

my friends are so fake, they couldn't hide their fake actions anymore.

School

I don't know what should I do. In the past two years, I lost my whole world. I lost my friends just because I fought with a friend so my whole circle stopped talking with me (whole circle=2 friends and 1 whom I fought with). This too they didn't hear my side just on the assumptions told me I did that. Though at first, I tried to call them, talk with them, share like I used to all in vain. They didn't trust me nor share anything with me. Just to share told me. But I can't always be the one calling them even they have to try. because of this, it affected my health way too much. I couldn't stop thinking about them whenever anything came up they were the ones in my mind. I even confronted my friend as it was getting way too big for me. First, I couldn't celebrate 31st with her, second, the friend who used to call me even if I called and she didn't pick up, she didn't call me for a month. And the day she called me again, I couldn't suppress my feelings. I had to vent it out but still, she was like I can't forget you, but who did something you shouldn't. But the fact is even after that venting out she didn't call me. They still met and didn't include me ever. It's just so hurtful from the best friends and world for you. This year even my grandfather passed away. It's like God doesn't want me to be happy.  

3am Thoughts

For the past few months i have this lingering feeling like me and my best friends have been slowly drifting apart ..( we have known each other for more 8-9 years now but i have been living in a different city for 2 yrs) it feels like they suddenly started ignoring me and stuff and I don’t wanna impose on them and call them out on it every time since they have own life to live … but sometimes it gets too hard and I literally have no other friends or ppl i can talk too… sometimes it feels like an ass just because I doubt them or friendship persay cuz it could very well be possible that its something entirely different …. Man its too hard to realize it is falling apart 

Anxiety

Over the past semester of college, I have bonded and become friends with people on my dance team. I felt like I have been talking more to them and present in the conversations. But they keep bringing up how I'm really quiet. I am kind of quiet, but like not how they are saying, and it's making me feel like I haven't actually become that close with them and that they don't really see me or as a friend, and it is making me really sad because this is the only friend group I've made and I like hanging out with them. 

I love my friends. They are so understanding. I just don't want it to change. 

I never had friends. I have class fellows, colleagues, neighbor etc with them I show courtesy. All of my life I considered them my best frnds. Just realized it.  

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