I hate my life . I feel like everything would be better if I would just be gone I feel like I can’t depend on no one that I’m just here I hate it here.

I never felt comfortable being at my moms house I recently moved back bc my bf made me feel as if he can put me out whenever he felt like it so I just felt as if we can do better separate than living together so today I was supposed to go out with my brother but he ended up getting his gf to call talking bout that we not going bc he to drunk when I literally just talk to his a couple minutes before that so I called my bf to come get me bc I didn’t feel comfortable staying here bc being that my brother back in town I don’t have no where to sleep but either the sofa or the floor so that turned into me and my bf fussing and fighting bc he don’t understand how I feel he don’t get it like he just kept saying they not gone kill u I just feel like if your gf tell u she not comfortable somewhere you come and see bout that I just feel like nobody honestly there for me like they say they r and that shit with my bf just was the topping on the cake I wish I can just leave and never come back or go out state or something just disappear not like anyone gonna miss me 

My silence really kills me sometimes,wish you could hear the sounds my eyes make.

3am Thoughts

This is my last msg ..I'm dying inside 

Conflict

Anyone wanna connect 

Dear Lord, when I get to Heaven
 please let me bring my Man.
When he comes, tell me that you let him in.
Father tell me if you can....❤

Love

I get really triggered when i'm being yelled at, like any time someone raises a little bit they're voice against me it makes me go insane internally, i feel horrible and usually i cry, not bc im sad but because i'm mad and it stresses me out. I want to disapear when this happens to me, i don't know how to exlain how i feel but it feels like i just want everything to end for a second or i'll lose my mind, and i get really bad anxiety. Does anyone knows why this happens to me? idk why it irritates me so much like it can literally just be someone raising their voice more than usually but it feels like someone has just stabbed me and im going to die for a second.

Anxiety

Anyone wanna talk about anything 🙃

Sad


Am not happy....it hard to get someone who will listen to what is going on in my head /pour my heart to. . I feel alone all the time....happy in public and crying in private

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