I hate my dadi
When i was kid 
My mom had some issues due to which I couldn't have milk 
So my dadi didn't allow her to feed packet milk to me
I was about to ***
I hate her 
Voh bhot pareshan karti hai
She compares me 
Torture me nd mom!!!!!!
Am very angry because of her

Anger Issues

It's just i am feeling low but don't know why i just wanna kill my self  i wanna be free from pain 

Anxiety

Recommend self help/awareness books that helped you in loving yourself/confidence building or anything .

3am Thoughts

“The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker.”

Happy

Actions>>>>>>>

Life

Maybe I will never be able to use my emotions properly ever again. How many times a person can recover from heartbreak? A point comes in life when I want my heart to close forever. And I think that point actually came. I want to say sorry to my heart and my inner child because I couldn't give love to them. 

Lonely

I am suffering from depression and anxiety and also get panic attacks a lot everyday. Sometimes, I get numb and sometimes I just can't control my emotions. It's all too much heavy inside and I feel as if I have lost all hopes in life. I tried to explain my problems to my parents but they gave me the label of "Crazy" and also laughed at me and also taunted a lot. I am in a relationship for almost 3 years and that was long distance and now we are finally at same city but I am not that happy, even though we kiss everyday and he tried to make me happy everytime but I am like too much tired of everything. I have gone through child abuse, been molested many times and I was said to keep my mouth shut cause it's about me as a girl I have to adjust. I have lost so many people and I really don't have any friend I mean any single person in my life and whoever came just used and threw me when they were done. I can't watch any movie or series cause it really really hurts me when i feel I am too lonely. I took commerce in class 11th which is another most important reason for my parents judging on my capability and as I never scored above 90 % or got into IIMs and instead studying in a third grade college (for MBA) my parents make fun of me and keep me under so much pressure all the time. I have been always given so much responsibility as I am an elder daughter of house and also been given so many rules and restrictions and never was allowed to take my own decisions and eventually I lost the power of decision making, the importance of self-love cause I was always said that I should make others happy and should never show anger, cry or do anything which makes others uncomfortable. I don't know what's happening with me and I even don't know why am i going through all this since I was born ? I am not thin or have good figure and that's why my parents always compared me with my younger sister and other girls who have good and slim figure. I have pimples on my face that my parents always keep saying about it that now i keep my face covered with hair or just try not to show my full face. I tried to share all this with friends i mean atleast some of these but only thing i got was "Chill" ,"Why are you so negative?", "Stop talking about all this", "Talk to your parents" , and some even laughed or showed sympathy and left. I always care for others now i do so much that even by looking their face I understand their feelings and I always try to make them feel special, loved, happy but I don't know why can't I do all this atleast little bit of it for me. I don;t have money to go to a therapist and i can't ask from parents and i really don't want to be a burden on my boyfriend as i know he also faces financial issues. I even kissed a boy even though I was in a relationship with my boyfriend and that's why I cheated him and i have got the last warning and I am so much cheap that even now i get attracted to other boys sometimes and also flirted with them which means as people will say that I don't love my boyfriend but I really do and I know it doesn't look like that. Everyday feels like hell for me, everyday i wish to die not because i hate myself but because i can't take more and i wanna rest now for rest of my life. I am too much tired of everything. I am a cheater, a failure in life, in academics, in love, in being a daughter and being an elder sister to my younger sister. My sister and I had huge fight and i also have marks where she beaten me and I know she is in her adolescent age and also under so much pressure so it's not her fault. 

Depression

Helloes, 
I just downloaded this app. And this is my first post so cheers…. 
If you want to see good love story 
Search LOVEHARD on Netflix… 
How many of you seen that ? 

Compassion

**Joke of the Day (Wordplay Joke) - 5/4/21**

What did the Strawberry say when it's song came on?

That's my **JAM**

Get it? Hope this makes your day 😃😃

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