I hate my boarding school, Im too tired. I want to learn like other people but I can’t. My head is a mess, I’m tired. I can’t adapt there. I’ve been there since Apri but I still can’t adapt. I can’t feel the fun like I used too when I was in my government school. I have friends but they’re not the same as my friends in my old school. It’s all probably homesick but I haven’t been homesick for 2 months now. I just want to be happy again. I want someone to comfort me. I want someone to understand me. I want my freedom back. I have too many assignments that everywhere I go I have books in my hand. I’m tired. I can’t find the thrill I used to have in myself anymore.
Are you preparing for something important? If yes then struggles and sacrifices will definitely lead you to something great in future. I can understand your frustration , but here I am who likes boarding schools but never had an option to go because of my overprotective parents. I don’t have similar situation like yours , I don’t have understanding mates or people who support me or look after me if I act different. And therefore solitude is my best friend. You know we always crave for something we don’t have and I can understand that your situation prefers your old school but trust me , this all is a part of your growth. You will learn how to work in pressure, you will learn how to be alone and how it is really okay for no one to be on your side for a period of time, because trust me , it’s really okay to be alone and this will help you achieve really high qualities in you. This all will teach you to live on your own, you won’t have to feel like being dependent on someone like you are feeling right now. Learning to adapt is also a great quality which helps everyone in their life. For one year I had to live away from my home because of really bad situations and trust me I hated it for few months but then I got used to it and now I can really adapt to my environment thought it still gets a little hard to accept but trust me it all works out fine. And if you have a bigger goal than focusing on emotions and desires right now, so please just work on that and this phase will pass anyways and sooner. And never think you are alone it all happens and teaches you something valuable.
