I hate it when people insist and portray a facade of being impartial and able to take direct criticism but as you tell them things they would rather not her, they are seething inside with rage, hate and a feeling of revenge.They will not communicate but rather will harbour a feeling of hate towards you for god knows how long, only because you were honest.  

Relationships

Life is so simple, why we make it complicated???

Life

Anxiety sometimes comes like a big wave from under the depths of my thoughts and engulfs me suddenly and completely. It is one of those times when i feel claustrophobic, but in my head? Does that make sense.  But you cant escape your brain so the feeling of being trapped intensifies until  i get tired  of fighting with this feeling. I put in earphones sometimes but the white noise is deafening still.I take them out and let the outside chatterin.It doesnt make a difference.I will get out of this, I always do. It would be nice to know there is a end to this though.

Mental Health

I need to talk to someone right now 

Depression

The moon would not have been noor, the heart would not have been so compelled, we would have come to meet you everyday, if your home was not so far away

Girlfriend

It’s exactly 3:43am now. Writing this here, with watery eyes, shaky hands, fast heart rate and I feel a pressure for which it’s hard to even breath at the moment.
Asked my bestie to help me to gather my courages for my final goodbye which I couldn’t do it alone. All i got as a reply is “bhai, neend arhi, can’t help” (Bro sorry can’t help , I’m sleepy) while we were on call with her ranting about her issues. I had to do it all alone…But that’s fine that I’ve the capacity to be someone’s pillar at times. But it hurts to collect your shattered pieces again all alone , only for it to be shattered again. It hurts soooo bad, physically and mentally both when you want to throw yourself to the feets of divine, begging for help . Asking every possible freaking universe to please be in my favour just this once. That “fir kabhi” might not come ever again, but either ways I’ll cherish everything I received. Only if human breed knew the difference between visible effort and silent efforts. Only if society had the capacity to understand a person who struggles to express emotions who was never taught to express sadness, anger and neither love. Only if they had the capacity to observe the change in behavior for the better instead of just complaining everytime. And lastly only if they had the capacity to read eyes, voice and the language behind “meri haar chuppi” (My each silence). Things would have been different, I wouldn’t have had to beg for some more time from the divine. 

Either ways, it was a beautiful journey but universe had other plans 💫

3am Thoughts

Whenever you feel depressed just remember " Tujhme koi kami nhi hai tu BEST hai bs tera yeh din bura hai.. "

Why North Indian girls are so attractive and also expensive? I mean I just really love their culture, the way they talk, and how they greet/treat elders, parents.. 
But most of them don't give a shit to boys mostly middle class boys... They need rich boys who'd take them to shopping 24/7, to experience restaurants, buys them expensive gifts, and movies all the time! But in the meantime western girls are not like that they just need someone would treat them like queens not by financially. Why can't our country girls aren't like that? 

Crush

Why the fuck i can't take my decisions
My parents are soooo toxic dude I wanna ram away from my homeee

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