I had to lie about the cuts on my arms, I said I fell into a bush š I hate having to lie about things. Only 3 people know what actually happened and they are trying to help me. Iāve been tasked with writing a sort of mood journal. So far it doesnāt look good itās just so dark, the urge to cut isnāt getting any better. The suicidal thoughts wonāt stop coming, and I know exactly where and how deep to cut to just end it all. Itās getting harder to resist the urge to just do it. Things donāt seem to want to get better. Iām trying I am but I donāt know how much more of this I can take
heyy, Iām ayzah :) and I wonāt deny myself from having suicidal thoughts again and again. I know lifeās really rough and hard to live. but please, do not ever harm yourself :< every single day for me is a matter of survival. reach out to your friends, distract yourself with something you like such as music, going out w/ your closed friends. anything just to distract yoruself from doing self-harm. hope youāre gonna feel better and better every single dayyy. have a good day ahead :>
