I had a pretty bad breakup last year and and can't really let go of tht him. I don't get in contact with him but I can't get him out of my head. I feel so angry and overthink when ever he comes to my mind and I feel like everything around is triggering me. I don't know what to do. How should I let go of him from my mind. I tried to forgive him but it's not happening. ll ever come a time where things related to him ll stop triggering me.

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Breakup

It's been months since we broke up and now I've realised that I did wrong to him. I was way too immature and stubborn back then. We could've worked if i was more focused on myself than him and his wrongdoings. I regret a lot of things but as we say, it is was it is. May lord forgive me and bless me with new opportunities to grow and shine. 

3am Thoughts

Few months ago me and my boyfriend of 1.5 years had a huge fight and he broke up with me. But it didn't seem like much, I knew we were going to make up in a day or two. But that very day he ran away to another city with his ex girlfriend. He called me up the next day to confess and apologize. I couldn't believe it. Even though we were broken up that time I felt like had been cheated on. It wasn't even 12 hours after our break up. When he called me he was panicking and the first thing he told me was that he hooked up with her. But as he got calmer he told me they didn't really hook up. They just cuddled. I don't know how much of it was true. I wanted to trust him but I just couldn't. The subsequent months he begged me to come back and apologized for this terrible thing. He told me he couldn't live w himself after what he put me through. A lot of times I tried to put this thing behind and give us another chance but it didn't happen. I would breakup in a day or two because I just couldn't forget what he had done. After 5-6 months, I finally felt like what he did was more in the background and I still had feelings for him. So I gave us another chance. Before this, he had said so many things to me about how he would treat me and how I'd be in the happiest relationship and how he'd build the trust back up. But when I finally said yes to being together idk, the relationship felt anything but good. For starters I had become very insecure, from the trauma that he had given me. I was very distrusting. I started overthinking a lot. Before this I wasn't very possessive. I used to be very chill and didn't care about who he was talking to or meeting. But now suddenly I felt very insecure. We had an open conversation about it too, where I explained to him my trust issues and how I will be a little restrictive for a while. He said he accepts that. But soon things started to get really bad. He's doing masters so he has absolutely no time on his hand, we hardly talked and it bugged me a lot. He was anything but affectionate to me and wasn't very attentive. Yesterday he posted a screenshot of a conversation on his Instagram story. It looked very shady, as the contact name was removed and everything. I asked him who it was and he told me a name. But in my followers a girl had reposted his story. He probably thought I wasn't following her. I asked him further questions to check if he mentions that girl, but he didn't. He straight up lied. When I confronted him finally, he said he was confused about who I was talking to. I let go of a lot of things to come back to this relationship and to give him a chance. But this just felt like a betrayal when he just lied to me. I kept asking him but kept turning things around. Idk if this was a big enough thing, but we were anyway on very delicate ground and I felt like it was best that I broke up. I feel really bad, I tried to be so good to him and did everything right but it just didn't work out and I feel very disappointed. 

I was in relationship with a guy for two years...in these two years we broke up and got back together a lot of time...coz he has a lot of committment issues...some time back he broke up with me...and now he wants to get back together...I can see he is now trying to make things work this time...but now I don't have that strong feelings for him..I have always have this fear he is gonna break up again...I don't know what should I do


Relationships

2020
Began my year by wishing someone at 12, someone really special . Everything was going smooth. I made sure to prioritise my health over everything else . Would wake up early, exercise, attend my classes ( they went online for the first month) I would try new healthy recepies everyday , studied and scored well and the best part I had someone to listen to me at the end of the day, so I would just hide under my blanket and tell him every bit of it , how this one exercise sucked and how much I dislike this one girl at my tuition . It was a mutual thing, we were both equally obsessed with each other but ofcourse that’s not how life works right ? Things began to fall apart , “ it’s not the same anymore “ that’s what he said , began to ignore my ilys, stopped asking for my pictures, got dry . It was hurtful , it really was and I couldn’t accept it . Soon came my birthday , it didn’t really go as planned but it was a good day . We hadn’t stopped talking and were trying to figure out where did it exactly go wrong . Now I’m a sensitive person and I cry like in seconds , he dislikes that ( I like that he dislikes that ) and clearly he got frustrated. And after 2 more months of trying, it just felt like “ nhi ho paega ab” 
It just wasn’t the only thing bothering me , since I just gave my boards, it was now time for me to decide which stream should choose and I believe that’s an important decision too . I wasn’t in my right state of mind, I couldn’t sleep at nights, I had no one to talk to , no one to clear my confusion. I took a sleeping pill in order to sleep early so that I could get back to my routine . I woke up with a heavy heart for a long long while , I hated waking up, I hated being productive, I hated every bit of it . But I knew I had to be strong so I joined a coaching with a hope to start fresh , to be distracted and to focus on something that’s actually important. We were still in contact , we just didn’t talk like we used to , it would be just like once twice a week . But seeing him online till late at nights, talking to somebody else while I scrolled through one year back memories , I was more hurt and so I decided to delete my socials, I had to . Felt pretty peaceful. I got alot of attention from alot of guys when I joined the institute . For the first few weeks I did respond but then I realised that that’s not what I am here for , so I made sure to keep my distance and focus on my studies . Soon came the result of my board exams and that was a happy day . I texted him , he didn’t have much to say just a boring “ congratulations “ and I mean wtf was I even expecting!? Kinda felt sad because I remember how he calmed me down my nervousness on the day of my term 1 result and was so happy for me . I scored the highest marks in my institute’s batch and that was a good part, came back home to a cake by my family , also got an iPad . The next two months came with new experiences, I gave a media interview, I got my first ever scholarship, my first ever award  and by God’s grace, I got one more too ! But during all these times, I did feel empty , I tried to restart my life so many times and I failed miserably every time , I couldn’t process and accept the fact that there’s nobody who is willing to listen to me, my happiness, my sadness, my worries, my thoughts. Soon came his birthday, wished him exactly at 12 with a cute paragraph and began to cry . It was the worst feeling I had ever experienced because things were so different an year ago and here we were in the present , unable to fix our bond . 
This year changed me alot, I felt exhausted, I began to hate dressing up or be excited for birthdays so this year was the first time I had not planned a surprise for my sister’s birthday but obv I didn’t want her to feel upset so instead I just took her to the market and instead of  secretly wrapping gifts for her, I just completely gave her the decision to  to pick up whatever she wants and as I had said , I felt like I had lost my excitement , my cheerfulness, this was also the first time I did not get ready for Diwali . Spent the day in pajamas studying . And then came November, the hardest month . I was so determined to focus on my health and studies and I finally gathered up the energy to but life happened again, my grandfather was in icu and my father got dengue, it was a difficult time and on 28th , dadu left us , left us forever . 15 days after that just went like that , people came and went and so many other things took place . 
So I met that special someone for the first time ever after basically knowing and talking to each other from like two years and that was a beautiful day , we tried again to sort things out , failed, tried again, failed, gave it one more shot and now here am I waiting for the clock to hit 12, uncertain about “ if he’ll wish me or not “ . I’m a mess believe me 🥹 
I’m certain that 2023 won’t be for “us” because I’m trying to focus on my studies rather than being involved in any sort of emotional attachment but maybe , someday later in life I might meet him and maybe things will work out then , cause I’m too young now and I have my whole life ahead of me. Maybe all this happened for the good !!


If you really did come this far, thankyou so much for listening 💕 , I really appreciate it and wishing you nothing but the best!

Teenagers

I’ve always lied that about my first kiss but I’m reality, he was my first kiss and I really enjoyed it. And, we were supposed to become an official couple but he started ghosting me. I started dating someone else (#2) as a rebound (which was completely unlike me). I could never let #1 out of my mind and after around 1.5 months, on a very difficult day of crying and drinking, I ended up “cheating” on #2 with #1 in the middle of the night. I’ve since obviously broken up with #2 (we were never official but still did it immediately the next day). Now I am hooking up with #1, he comes over to my place at 1am and we make out + more. 
I was never the type of person to actually be FwB with someone but here I am. Idk why but #1 has this powerful hold on me that even he doesn’t know about and that is making me keep him in my life no matter what. 

Cheating

So when I was 19, it was 2014 I met my husband for the first time, everyone knows how teenage love is, he was of my age too but after some months there was this girl who came between us so we broke up but he kind of wanted me to be his friend still though I clearly said I can’t be friend with the person I love! But he still insisted that he can’t let go of me and that he needs me because his mom was going through rare disease! I’m a kind person I stayed even though it was hurting me! So he was in relationship with this other girl and she never liked me, she gave him a choice to choose me or her! Which I never gave when we were in a relationship! So he left her for me! He said he would choose friendship over love! And that girl ghosted him for months! After so many months he proposed me and I said yes obviously lol but soon after that next month that bitch kept coming back and ruining my relationship! Cut short skipping to 2020 I got married to him, he moved on from her long back! But idk why a part of me stalks that ex! I mean i just couldn’t get rid her out of my head! It’s like a part of me holds on to something i don’t know about!! And it hurts my soul when I see her pictures! Even though i try so hard not to see her IG picture! I don’t know what to do to stop myself to even think about her! I don’t even know why I do that to myself! 

I want an advice friends! I am 21 year girl and I got a marriage proposal and the groom is foreign and he is 28 years old and I still didn't saw his face and no nothing about him! our relatives are suggesting this proposal to my parents and they are discussing and I know they ask at last about my opinion! If they ask my opinion what should I say? I afraid and confused about marriage because I completed my graduation a month ago! 

Anxiety

I'm in love with my best friend. And I told him. Turns out, he already knew but he says he values our friendship too much to risk getting into a relationship. Also, he likes someone else. I knew that. I'm okay with that. The only thing that makes me sad is that things will never be the same between us again. We will still be friends, but it'll be different... 

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