I guess in the end, we are just not meant to be with each other. I wish you all the best to find other guy who is better than me. Thank you for your time.

I'm fine now. That time I was really depressed. I'm thankful for your caring. I'm recovering now. Thank you a lot.

Relationships

Har kisi ka apna tareeka hai, apni apni kahani hai, sirf ek factor common hai - Shiddat 🖤

Love

I usually post sad on insta after having problems in relationships since 4 months... idk y. I do believe in keeping my issues to my self. Now i feel sad post ki wajah sai people will see me differently ..people tou gai bhar mai work collegues r also there. Sorry just stating a thought. 

3am Thoughts

How should I love myself?

Self Love

Hi there I feel so stressed out right now, I'm working on my bachelor thesis and it's due in 6 days and I can't work on it anymore, I can't sit and work, I'm paralyzed by fear, and the less I work the more I stress and my coping mechanism is watching Gilmore girls until I fall asleep, can you please make a lame joke to cheer me up? 

Stress

Laal joda phene ana hath mehndi Wale Lana rachayenge sang milke, 🥀
sath kangan leke ana thode bandhan leke ana haàan nibhayenge sang milke💫....... 

Crush

I don't understand whenever someone talks about caste discrimination, some upper castes talk like it's doesn't exist at all. Like refuse to even accept that it's a problem.

It’s getting heavier, I had thought pushing the boulder every day up the hill in this endless state of Sisyphus would become easier, that I would become stronger, that things would get better, but it doesn’t and they don’t.

I’m paralysed in place, my mind always hypothesising and daydreaming, stuck in an endless loop of understanding what needs to be done and never knowing how to actually do it, as though the act of doing and the revelation of understanding are two worlds that only orbit each other, afraid to collide.

I am in a prison, I am my jailor, I am the cage, I am the key, all of this revolves around me, I need help, I can do this myself, why bother ? Who am I ? Just let me die, but I want to live, there’s so much more to do, but it’s all pointless, nothing feels good anymore, just let it end.
Too lazy for a suicide so I just watch the days pass, hoping to die.

It’s getting worse inside my head, on the outside I’m fine, somewhat charming, well articulated, attractive, capable, inside I’m screaming, crying, hurling myself at things, staring off into the distance imagining what it’s like for everything to just stop, I don’t understand life, I never have, they called me gifted, placing ever heavier loads on me while I tried to live up to their standards, it was never enough and it never will be, now nothing is ever enough for me, my thoughts and writing matches my inner monologue, rambling and disconnected, on the verge of becoming incoherent.

Therapy hasn’t helped, family avoids the issues, people that are close spill the usual platitudes, I’m lonely and isolated, I’m writing this to get it out, I don’t know what else to do anymore.

Depression

Just got a message from her and sheis angry ....... Because i didn't wish good morning or good night since last evening . Also she said ki future nhi and blah blah .... The same things i was worried about ....... Also asked that i should tell if i am interested or not ..... Kyun confuse kar rahi hai ? 

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