I got played with today
My guard was down
My mind was numb
All my feelings 
Kept telling me to burn
My skin away,
Tonight won't let it get away
Let there be no sun
No daylight again
Let the world remember
What happens
When the innocent lives
Get fucked up,
There won't be an innocent one
Ever again 
We will teach them to play
We will make them cons and smart
Our children will never get played with
We will kill their innocence 
With our own hands today
Telling them the world is 
Not a good place
You can't trust anyone
You're the only one you have, okay.

Nikunj B.

3am Thoughts

Day 120 of writing journal entries.

Today was a nice day, the weather was good, I practiced playing some Volleyball, schoolwork went smoothly, and someone complimented my photography skills which made me feel good. 🥰

Other than that, it was a simply nice day.

Personal Growth

I stole my roomates money for a quiet a time because I didn't wanted to waste my parents money for my extra expenditures. I know it's wrong and I feel like maybe give up living. What if they found out its me? What if they tell my parents?  they would be so ashamed. All i wanted to do was lessen their burden not bring them shame. I can't live another day knowing I disappointed my parents. 

Today I had a good day. I didn’t think of the past or anything bad. Just had a peaceful and happy impact in myself. I just felt peace w myself. Which I haven’t been feeling like for months. It feels good to be feeling like this again after a rough path. Now all I wish is that this feeling stays forever and I also wish to put more achievements in my days, for an example to study more, meditation and most importantly exercise more. I want to lose so much weight and I do struggle everyday but I know one day I will achieve my goal I just need to begin somewhere. And I will start today! Amen for me.

Life

When my friend got married why I feel so alone and empty. 

Lonely

I couldn’t find the appropriate category for this// Social media tells us what we are supposed to look like which is basically a 24 inch waist with a zero fat percentage, a big ass but also a thigh gap, a little belly fat is fine but not too much, well toned arms but they shouldn’t be bulky, a woman who’s tall enough for the perfect kiss but don’t get me wrong. “short is great too”. social media tells us what the perfect relationship is supposed to look like which is basically, sex at least thrice a week, dinner reservations at expensive restaurants, free hoodies from your boyfriends, your man hyping you up because he likes the way you dress and your style. Instagram, Facebook, snapchat (or whatever other platform you use) has us wrapped around its fingers, we’re puppets on strings that are attached to nothing but the society’s standards. That is what we all think. If you (whoever is reading this) someday, somehow manage to look past the standards that the  society we’re living in holds for us, you might actually find beauty in everything. It’s okay if you want to disagree with me on this, I see where you’re coming from but I personally feel that the expectations that were supposed to fulfill aren’t as bad as we think they are. You know why? Because everything, every damn thing, that we go through  or think, is because of the decisions we make on our own. You might actually start caring less, or run out of fucks to give if you take this blindfold off.

Other

Since 2 week,i m unable to sleep at night.i am pursuing an online self paced course since 2 year.i am unable to complete it...i lost my mental peace,focus,concentration....i want to be a professional person...how can i achieve my target.

Anger Issues

Is there anyone to talk.. Im lil bored 

Acquaintance

My dearest, how I yearn for your presence each and every day. My fervent desire was for us to remain united, until my final breath. Alas, we were not blessed with an infinite amount of time. Know, however, that my love for you is eternal.

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