I got me two warehouse jobs thank god’ I work for Costco and amazon. I’m so proud of myself! And I got approve for credit card. Now it’s time to build my credit stay focus on my jobs rise up and save my money invest and get a home and a new ride. Let’s get it! Yeeeee to my success.

3am Thoughts

Anyone to talk please 

writing this while my mind is in a dark place
friend said something a day ago, how they waited for me to hang out but i never came
i actually did tell them that we should hang out, so i basically flaked on them. it wasnt the first time either, it has happened many times before and i just feel so bad, ive just been kinda running away from it, havent talked to them in a day and dont feel like talking to them anytime soon. just been hanging out with other friends and stuff
honestly, since i woke up, i havent had the motivation to talk to them, and i definitely dont want to talk to them tomorrow too.
i just worry that one day maybe ill mess up really bad and it could ruin our friendship, i dont even have that much friends, definitely below 8.
after writing this i felt a little better. 

Friends

Ey, I'm new here so just wanted to say hi, :)

so I have my exams coming up and I am making a mental note to never express myself to my parents because they never understand the pressure I am under right now. I told my mum that they don't care about me as much as they do for my elder sister and I told her how I am not like others when it comes to handling emotions so I need therapy. My experiences, struggles, and the trauma I have been in were so quickly disregarded because I have to take care of 2 emotionally immature adults - one is an alcoholic and the other just doesn't stop yelling and shouting. I was shot with so much shit like "others are doing it, why can't you?" Believe me, I have friends and none of them have to go through this shit. Their parents are there for them through thick and thin, and sometimes I even feel ashamed that I have to manage the entire house by myself that I make up scenarios like theirs 
for example - my friend says "yaar Aaj toh mumma ne bohot scold Kiya kyuki Maine homework nai kiya that aur lunch nai khaya. Phir Maine jabh papa ko mana ki nai mujhe abroad college jana hai, tabh unhone mujhe kaha ki 'okay, konsa course karna hai? Mai tumhari research mai help kar deta hoon' " 
and then I have to say " Haan bhai mai samajhti sakti hoon tera dukh kyuki meri mumma bhi bohot involved hai and mere papa bhi mujhe bohot support karte hai, apne life decisions mai." And the scenarios I make up are never true. I feel alone and undervalued. 

They are so emotionally exhausting that I want to just leave them. Just leave them. I should be able to enjoy my life, and not go through this shit. I hate that I have parents who are not even willing to listen to my side of the story and put all the blame on me - even for their actions. They have no empathy for me and just are so individualistic. My mum used to sit with me, and now because I held up a mirror, she is not even here. 

Parenting

My heart felt to heavy. I don’t want cursing him. But I still felt so much anger on myself. I really need forgive him. Pls help me. 

Stress

Hi there guys so recently i am having UTI and appendicitis and couldn't figure out how to avoid the operation, can someone suggest some tips for mental relaxation?

Mental Health

Bore ho rha hu yaar,koi hai?

*Sad* 
I don't know why I overthink a lot, makes things worst than it is in reality. 

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