I go through photos on my phone sometimes and think, "I wish it was this day again", and that feeling sucks!

Just me and my 3 hours of sleep a night against the whole world <3

3am Thoughts

How to deal with parents who dont love u back.

Life

Bad feeling

Anxiety

I have so many thoughts in my brain on a daily basis, just like everyone else, and keeping them to myslef has started to make my head hurt. So even if no one reads these, I need to get them out there or I will go certified crazy.

Most my feeling and thoughts revolve around loneliness and the feeling of having no one. Seems very basic, but I know that my thoughts and emotions are getting so powerful, deep and intensely depressing that they pose a threat to me and those around me. I dont know when and how I started to feel this way, but I think about how alone I am and about other people every minute of every day and it is affecting my career. All I want is to study, do something productive and live myself, but the thoughts of other people and what they think of me consumer me so much that they prevent me from doing anything.

And the funny part about all this is that I actually kinda find everyone around my annoying and intolerable. And holding onto the people I do like spending time with is so hard because everytime I think about talking to them, I get the feeling of self-pity like why would they talk to me, I am sure they have better friends and noone really likes me, or that I dont like them and the only reason I am talking to them is because I need someone to talk to.

Anyways I really need therapy and will probably start it soon when I am less shit scared about exploring the fucked up shit in my brain, but I want to write everyday and I hope someone out there reads these and knows theyre not alone (just like I hope I am not :)

How to cope up with the pain that you get when your trust is broken by your bestfriend,  the one whom you believed in the most and they used you..

Fucking cool
Recently My ex got married, from so many months we are nt in contact, blocked in all platforms, I tried to talk sometimes, she ignored like hell, atleast I was thinking she will call fr marriage, but doesn't happen, fuck off her attitude and thinking. This taught me good lessons in my life. 


Cheating

what do u think ronny ko avantika ke saath jana chahiye ya tanvi?

I am friends with my ex. I still love him and he doesn't and its okay. We are doing good being friends. But I usually check his last seen to know if he's fine. I don't like bothering him by texting him without any reason. So here's what happened. We were chatting a few days ago and then the  conversation ended and he hasn't come online since then. It's been 2 days. And he never does that. I am hella worried about him. I have his father's number and so I thought of texting him but even he isn't online since the same day. I don't know what to do. I just wish he is fine. I hope everything is fine.  

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