i fucked up and lost all my friends and now after months i have made one new friend but i still miss the others😕

Now you shouldnt miss them because if they were actually your true friend they would never leave you. They aren't worthy.
Enjoy your life and make new friends.

I know how that feels
Everybody's life is a mess in some or the other way
But the good thing is you made a new friend!
Just forget about the past and start fresh✨

Delusion

Ab dek beta tu ab tu gya ab nhi aauga isbaar pakka 😂😂
Congratulations for your arrange marriage 

Boyfriend

What use all this tech if can't help find a proper friend? I remember days during my childhood there were power cuts every day for one hour at night and that was time all the entire family used sit and talk. Everyone in the street was out talking to each other and once power was back everyone went back. So burn everything down lets have no electricity. 

Frustration

Talk to me🥺🥺 I miss myself n how joyful I was I've turned upside down....when does it get better 😢😢

Depression

 Change my mind!!!
Joints never hurts 😌

Sometimes I feel like I have a lot of suppressed talent . Since I dedicated my time to studying for the past few years I feel like the ppl around me think that that’s the only thing I’m good at. It makes me feel like the creative side of me is suppressed or isnt there. Truthfully I feel like I don’t really know what I’m good at or feel convinced that I’m not really good at much else . Like I know that I have other qualities but I don’t know which one to tap into. It’s frustrating cuz I want ppl to see that I can do so much more but I have to feel that way first. I have to convince myself first or feel secure first. I guess today my inferiority complex decided to trickle in!

Insecurity

I was diagnosed with Anxiety a while ago (she didn't specify what kind, but I believe it's social) and I've tried two different therapists, nothing really helped me. 
I feel like shit lately. I used to exercise almost every day and was relatively active socially as well. I was learning another language, doing my work, I was doing it all and I felt productive, good. Then it just fell all of the sudden. I was having panic attacks very often for a while after exercising because I would look in the mirror at myself. I'd look and I would just burst out in tears, hyperventilating. I'm not sure to call it a panic attack or not, but I felt like I was panicking. I couldn't stand the way I looked. I know I'm thin but I felt fat. I won't give measurements but some could even say I look "underweight" yet I still feel fat. Then sometimes I feel too skinny which caused the whole exercise thing. I couldn't stand looking at myself, I still can't. I want those perfect measurements of a waist and hip. A 9-inch difference between my waist and my hip, 10 would be the best. At one point I was even measuring my face to see how well I fit the beauty standard. Now I'm measuring my body all the time and every time I just feel worse.  I told my boyfriend about the issue before and he told me "stop complaining, do something and work out" that's the jist of it. Guess it wasn't for me? At least I can say I tried, but in the end, it made it all worse. I'm terrified of eating certain foods, I'm not anorexic by the way I still eat a lot, but some things I will be so scared of eating. But cause I feel like shit, I eat it anyway and then I feel so disgusting. In my head I'm going over and over it again about how in the long run I'm slowly killing my body by eating this, I'm gonna be fat and old and no one will love me if I continue this path, just horrible shit and I can't take it anymore. I'm scared of taking medication as well. Won't even take painkillers when I have my period. I can't even go over all the shit I'm constantly worrying and running over in my head every day but it's repetitive and I'm sick of it. The worst part is that my family, my friends, my class, it's all great. Loving family and friends, I have money, I have a good education and good grades, but I still am so dissatisfied with myself. It makes me feel like I'm taking this all for granted. I wanna be able to be happy with everyone and smile, not constantly thinking about all this. Maybe even a name to what I'm feeling would help me. Is it all just hormonal shit? Am I making a big deal and throwing myself a pity party over this? I wanna feel better again. 
fuck sorry I wrote so much I just have had so much on my mind. 

Anxiety

Yaar ye dukh kahe khatam nahi hota re 😅🥺

3am Thoughts

Hi,
Sirf Profile pic dekh kr siddat wala pyar hota h kya?? 
Recently I got a friend request on Insta, I accepted it since it was my art account. That person sent a few good morning texts for a few days, I ignored them or remained seen. After a few days of continuous good morning text I just replied back.. nd he said he loves me. I couldn't proceed for a moment but then he keeps making me believe that he is saying the truth. 
I'm kinda practical person and don't trust people easily... He is being so emotional and saying that he will never break my trust and always keep me happy.. 
I don't know if people fall in love like this also I feel lil pressurized by his so expressive nature.. I am telling him everything clearly that I am so different from him, and I feel such and such. I don't want to be in a relationship if I'm not sure about my feelings. 

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